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Haha. bakit ngayon ko lang naisip na iupload ito. :)) XD anyway, andaming nagtatanong e =)) ayan. :D

How I Spent the First Decade of the Millenium.

Well yeah. I have to do this sort of thing before the year ends. :)) so it's been like ten years since the new year i remember, i was holding a mug--the design was there were letters celebrating and they spelled out Millenium. yeah. it was still all so vivid. XD

ano na nga bang ginawa ko sa buhay ko? :)) hmmm.

• hmm. nag-aral ako for the past 10 years. <well dapat lang talaga>
• well, i learned how to write and enjoy it. :D so bale, i've been writing for 5 years. :)
• ah, for 10 years, anime lover ako! wooooo! mabuhay ang anime! XD
• I got sent to the guidance 1 time. :)
• I was late to school, how many times? Zero, beybe. XD
• Times absent? hmm. siguro mga 20 - 30 times. :) <dahil sa sakit, pagkatamad o pagddrama, o kunyari may sakit XD >
• Nagdrama nang 1000 times dahil sa pag-iisip ng course ko sa college. XD
• Been closer to God for like 4 years. <thanks to the Bible Study nila kuya paul! :) >
• Never pa nagboyfriend. <ew.> XD 
• Na-inlove nang 3 beses.
• Na-heartbroken nang 3 beses.
• Nagkacrush nang Positive-Infinity na beses. XXDD <hanggang sa loob ng anime e. XD >
• Nagbago ng hairdo 1 time. :)) yeah. ngayong fourth year lang. XD
• Nakipagsabunutan ng 1 time. XD hi to Paula dehesa. XD
• Nabangga rin ako ng bisikleta at nagkablack-eye ng isang beses. :))
• Nagtangkang maglayas ng ilang beses.
• Ginustong mamatay ng ilang beses rin. [emo XD]
• Nagkaron ng mga astig na kaibigan. :)
• Fortunately, kasama pa rin ang pamilya. :D
• Kinaya ang mga pagsubok ng buhay at humihinga pa rin hanggang ngayon.
• at, mali pala, 4 na beses akong na-inlove. :)
• Naging optimist. [sa wakas!]
• At ngayon ay medyo excited at kinakabahan sa palapit kong pagkokolehiyo. :D

I want to see the world :D 2010 would be fine start. :)

But I wont go unless you all come with me. :>

 

Happy New Year Guys! <advanced happy new year rather. :D>

I hope this would be a fine year for all of us. :)

Rational. [A Poem]

So. it's like my first poem for like months--i think a year. haha. you know, like a poem poem. :)) i guess i was too busy and all that. and frankly, the year was quite well, so i had not much to write about. :)

i wrote this because i was bored. it's been two days since the 25th [Merry Christmas!], and it has also been two days of my fever. :| i don't feel entirely well, but i guess this is better. well here it is. :)

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Rational
By: Blackrose

Logic. Rationality. Sense.
Think all for the sake of convenience.
Let the facts do the talking.
Let the numbers do the walking.

Bottle up emotion.



Invest in something that won't let you fall,
And never ever risk it all.
'Cause when you do, chances are,
There's a possibility to fall apart.

That is not an option.



A hundred-percent success rate.
Zero-percent unnecessary weight.
No room for uncertainty and any blind spot.
A state of security, I constantly sought.

And then I fell in love.

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Yeah. i'm that type of person. Really. i never do anything that i can't uhh, manipulate? anything that i can't ensure a great outcome. anything that i can't ever predict.

and what if that happens. i mean. WHOAH. what the hell am i supposed to do then, huh? You can't read that out from a text book or something. or calculate or anything. Well, you could conduct experiments but i think that would be just cruel :)

Things about that subject is so uncertain. I mean, you'll never know what might happen tomorrow. Pano pag nareach ko na yung point na yun? Would i risk it all for this guy that happened to trick me into falling for him? XD

I'm not the type of person who takes risks.

Well of course the answer would be like: If you love the person, trust him.


And i would just stare blankly upon hearing that.
para sa kin, mahirap kaya. =)) sa lahat ng bagay sa mundo, ayokong nasasaktan ako. [kaya nga di ako marunong maglaslas XD ]

But I do trust God. :) and i guess, if i cant trust that person, it means that i don't trust the big guy up there.

Well for the first time ever, i'm actually risking it this time. Big time.

Handsome Men Can't Be Hurt by Water.

Ouran High School Host Club

Okay, I may be the last anime-loving person to have watched this but i really like it. thumbs up. :D

well they're all charming by the way, and nooo. i will not use this blog entry to flaunt how gorgeous they are. [i'll do that in an album :)) ] well for some reason, nakarelate ang lola mo. [ meaning ako. did i use the vernacular language correct? :)) ]

watching the series was the total opposite of a lackadaisical experience. i find myself in the shoes of the characters and went into a reflection.

YOU: REFLECTION?!?

ME: yep. :))

okay. i know that this would sound shallow but yes i did feel that. i didnt ask you to read this anyway. basta ibubuhos ko puso ko dito. >.<

**Haruhi Fujioka lost her mother at an early age. she was smart and capable of being responsible of the things she had right now. she understood her parents and started to act independently. sound familiar? well. i didnt lose my mom, but i guess i grew up to be independent. not in the sense of money or anything but in my attitude. sooner or later, i got tired of being disappointed. i always wanted their attention. and i end up resented... rejected. tapos yun. NAGARAL ako. [at nagaaral pa rin ;) ] nang mabuti. somehow lahat ng pagkukulang nila sa kin ay binuhos ko sa report card ko. FUNNY. i was about to give up. i wanted to be cut loose. i dont want to be "good" anymore. tipong SUKANG SUKA na ko sa lahat ng nangyayari sa buhay ko. di naman ako masaya.

[to be honest, i think God wanted me to watch this. nakakatawa siguro sa'yo pero sa kin hindi.]

**Kyouya Ootori - so turn na niya ngayon. OO. kyouya is the third son of this super rich guy with lots of companies. having his brothers achieve a lot, he is expected to do the same but never surpass them. Frustrating, no? okay. it does not sound familiar. :)) EXPECTATION. you know my parents never expected me to achieve academically. actually they never expected much of me at all. all they want is for me to become a good...young...lady...with....initiative...common sense...manners.... and the list goes on and on. tipong yung mga gusto nila sayo inoonti-onti nila para hindi sila masisi. and i have lived with the fact that they were never satisfied with me. I know this sounds harsh but yea, maybe they didnt do it intentionally, but i grew up with that thought in mind. mali ang mga kaibigan mo, palpak, WALANG KWENTA... oh... sakkit no? sa estadong iyan, mataas na nga grades mo, never mo pa silang minura or talkedback, nauutusan ka na rin palabas ng bahay, never ka pang naglayas at nagttrabaho ka na rin sa loob ng bahay. grabe you guys are lucky.

**HIkaru and Kaoru Hitachiin- wala akong twin ah. :)) XD pero the story of these two is that they've always kept their world from our world. ayun. AKO. i can pretty tell you: NO ONE KNOWS ME. well a selected few may know me a lot, but they've never really known me fully. i've always kept some part of me away. i have secrets...dark dark secrets ;)  well the main issue is that i can never trust anyone fully. :| it is forgiveable, the world is a bad bad place ;P people, i am a pessimist. i heed all the bad things that could happen when one allows other people to sink in to what they are. well maybe i am missing a lot but that's just the way i am. and i guess the only person that could do that to me would be someone like tamaki or haruhi. :D but i reckon there wont be a person like that for now. dont mistake me friends, i trust you of course, it's just that no one would be ready yet to see me. :))

Ouran High School Host Club. the characters' morale are stupendous and people like that may or may not exist at all. but this series underscores one thing:

if you have people, friends--family, by your side, everything is worthwhile.

to carry your burden with you,

to offer faces you intend to paint with smiles,

to paint YOUR smile.

I guess God wanted me to learn this, as i was about to give up all things good and sensible. I wasnt alone and i need not be anyone else. Shallow ko no? di ko alam yun mga bagay na ganon. it's pretty easy to say those things. and it's damn hard for me to live 'em. :D

You just have to be yourself and not live up on what others expect of you. that's it.

 

isa tong napakahabang blog entry, at IKAW. na nakabasa nito. salamat. by reading this, you have somehow alleviated the burden. ;) astig ka, ang layo ng binasa mo. :D

 

so sa mga friends ko. SALAMAT :D very much.

i'm sorry i couldnt show you all of me, but i guess that would be just for tamaki-sama.

 

MY PRINCE. :))

haruhi did nothing but to study, but she met this wonderful guy. i remain faithful to my promise! :D

 

**wwooott feeling ko. :) XD he's a melodramatic idiot. :) sana may ganon rin ako. XD

7:28 am.

7:28 am. sabi ng orasan ng pc. :|

ang aga no. ayun. nasanay na alas sinco nagigising at heto kanina pa gising at di pa rin makatulog ulit. umagang umaga, basag araw ko. :|

grabe. charmaine! tama ba yun fortune ko? :)) depressed nga ako ngayon. alam mo yun tipong hindi ka na nga inasikaso,  sinisisi ka dahil ikaw ang nagasikaso, tapos palpak ka pa, ininsulto pa kaibigan mo. SAKIT. :]

as usual, hindi ako sasagot. ganon naman sa loob ng bahay. parang CAT.

"UPPER CLASSMEN ARE ALWAYS RIGHT."

kahit anong explanation mo, debates, excusesa, reasons, sense... wala pa rin. kung ano sasabihin nila yun yun tama. :))

and being the good cadets we are, we never talk back to our officers. except maybe for the younger one. :D pero nasanay na kami ng kuya ko na ganyan. buong buhay. pero mas may guts siya sa kin, lately he seems to be getting full of it. i cant blame him.

HAY. ayos lang sana ako lang e. PERO KAIBIGAN KO PA! kala nia kung sino siya.

 

i guess i'm blogging my heart out 'cause there's no output of this emotion. :|

wag nio na lang basahin. :))

 

I shouldnt be sad though. God does all things for a reason. and i guess this happened for the best. BEING SAD DOES NOT DO ANYTHING! [pata pon don chaka :)) celebration rhythm in patapon 2 :)) XD addicted na ko mga pre. :)) ]

 

 

but something made me smile kanina. it was 5:59 am then. :D

looking back at the things that happened yesterday. :D :D :D

 

 

 

today's the last day of march by the way. :]

KUNG SA TINGIN MO IKAW ANG TINUTUKOY KO, BASAHIN MO TO.

:| faith, kilala mo kung sino to. :)) XD

 

anyway. je vous aime.

okay... pero there's something in your attitude that i dont like. :|

The Girl Who Leapt Through Time [Movie]

Well maybe none of you anime goers know this but it's really quite nice. :D

Makoto here is a boyish high school girl who is quite reckless and irresponsible. Her two bestfriends are Chiaki and Kousuke. [both are secretly in love with her. :D ]

and guess what? she has the talent to "time leap" or go back in time. :D
and what does she do? she tries to make the most of it and tries to fix things up. BUT for every action, there is a corresponding consequence.
what are the twists? and why are there a lot of pictures of Chiaki? :)) it's for you to find out. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED TO WATCH. ;)


TIME WAITS FOR NO ONE.

LSCers enroll. :))

super walang magawa. XD

LSC ortigas. :D
march 7 '09

The Final Goodbye and Thank You.

February 20, 2009. goodbye and thank you for the last time.

Live Museum :]

Start:	Feb 19, '09
Location:	CMSHS

AP live museum. archimedes on the moon. XD

Turn Back the Pendulum [Bleach flashback]

this shows the lives of the Vaizard before they became Vaizard and the lives of the present captains. :)) so nice. although mahaba, it's worth it. :))

the young byakuya and ichimaru are so kawaii. :))

Ang Huling El Bimbo [translated into English by Yours Truly]

Okay, i was bored. I did not have anything to do, though i had a ton of work to do XD ... so here it is. :D

I cant resist not putting rhymes [it's cuter that way :)) ] so, bahala na kayo XD

 

Ang Huling El Bimbo [in English]

The Last El Bimbo

You looked like Paraluman
When we were still so young
And you were so good at dancing
May it be the boogie or the cha cha
But my favorite would be
is how you swayed to the El Bimbo
T'was amazing, entertaining,
goosebumpingly-captivating.

Just as we left school
I'd be going to your house
The afternoon spent wholly
Of you teaching me

Chorus:
Our hands held each other,
And none of us knew, none of us bothered
That you taught this heart of mine,
What it means to love truly for the first time

My body would just freeze
As the record would play
Astounded by the sway of your hips
and into your deep and beautiful eyes
Life would just seem so much brighter
When both of us held each other
And we slowly slip away
As my hand slides off your flawless arm

I should have told you long ago
'Cause even though now it's lame, this dance is the only one i know.

Chorus:
Our hands held each other,
And none of us knew, none of us bothered
That you taught this heart of mine,
What it means to love truly for the first time

A lot of years have come to pass
We never saw each other again
I heard that you already have a son
But you still have no husband
You're a dishwasher in Ermita, that's what i hear
And one night, you got into an accident in a dark alley near

All my reveries suddenly faded away
And now i dance with you in my dreams anyway
 
Chorus:
Our hands held each other,
And none of us knew, none of us bothered
That you taught this heart of mine,
What it means to love truly for the first time

Avatar: Sozin's Comet [Series Finale]

Rating:	★★★★★
Category:	Other

well, we are all aware of the fantastic tv series Avatar: The Legend of Aang. You know the "bending" and stuffl. i love the series, the animation is just right and the story is immaculate. but i will comment on the last episodes, they were...uh.. inti-...crea-...wonderfu--.. i cant really put it into words but, it rocked!

Avatar: Sozin's Comet is divided into four parts...
1. The Phoenix King --- Ozi, gets all powerful and all hope seems to be lost cause the fire nation's gonna wipe out everything and Aang's like weak.
2. The Old Masters --- well, Aang goes on a "spiritual journey" [just like most what happens most times in the series], team avatar is separated. They meet the old masters, that will be rescuing ba sing sei.
3. Into the Inferno --- MAN! i love the fighting scenes! our heroes are quite losing here but MAN! i still love it. :D this is where the 4 battles begin.
4. Avatar Aang --- MAN! yea you guessed it. i love the fighting scenes here too. :)) well our heroes triumph and aang brings peace to the world.

well that's just like a summary of what happened.

asides from the great fighting scenes and animation, the plot just seemed so great in these last four episodes. all those characters, all those stories, destinies, intertwined. a lot of the old characters resurfaced, showing that this fight is not Aang's alone. it was all of them.

one of the great things i admired in this story is the contradiction of Aang having so much power and yet having no strength in taking a life. at first i was like, MAN! this is for the world, just kill him. and all of the other avatars think so too. but aang made it through, having the right principles. he defeated the fire lord without killing him. it was just wisdom. violence cannot end violence.

SIGH. that was a lot to say. :)
i just love it so much! :))

i highly recommend you watch it!
Anticipate the upcoming Avatar movie! Coming this Dec 2009! ;)

DANCE! Jive!

:)) group namin.

DANCE! Pasa Doble! :D

pasa doble na nga ba? ewan ko di ko makta ung vids. :))

Archimedes Rainforest Trip! 01/24/09

Rainforest, Pasig. :)) games. awww. i wasnt able to playy... or swimm eittheerr.. :[ but it was fun then :))

Final Fantasy Dissidia

Rating:	★★★★★
Category:	Video Games
Genre:	Role-Playing
Console:	PlayStation Portable (PSP)

final fantasy dissidia. :))

well the only thing released is the japanese version and i guess we'd have to wait for a few more months for the english one.. but man! it's great. i mean the graphics are immaculate.

and the story deserves a 10 out of 5 :)) well i couldnt understand it all because it was japanese but i found a subbed prologue in the youtube. XD considering the fact that all the main characters of each Final Fantasy with their equal opponents are there, this could be a blast! :)

from the japanese characters and my gamer's sense of intuition, there's a story mode and the arcade mode. and the rest is uhhhhh. japanese? XD well i havent played the story mode [cause it's japanese] but the arcade mode is quite cool. :D they have overdrives, summons and stuff. well it's fighting system is NOT turnbased and is like the system of Kingdom Hearts. :]

it's pretty cool and i think every final fantasy goer should try it.
well at least if you're not japanese, wait for the english version. :))

almost a senior. :)

(sigh.) bigayan ng stipend ngayon. :)) P1200 X) not enough for the hard work and the sleepless nights X)

anyway, that's not the point. today na it was given is like the 8th time i got it. WHOAH. X) third year na pala ako. it was just like yesterday that i was a freshman; feeling ultimately different. i remember the people i used to hang out with. back when i was in my first year, I DID NOT COME HOME AT PAST 7pm(during schooldays)! X)) all those people i left. all those people i miss. X|

second year came, and yeah. their almost the same people i am with right now.

same faces :) new phases :)

on days AND nights, that i thought i wouldnt make it alive, i actually did! i even learned how to do a project a night before the deadline :)) i learned that brown envelopes can actually save your life in keeping all those darn quizzes your teacher asked you to compile. i learned that all the stress, all the hard work, all the sleeplessness, is all worthwhile, when you have friends there beside you. awwww. :))

it's january 09. i remember my first day of high school, june 6 06. [666] other people thought it was the end of the world, but it was a beginning for ours. :D

a few more months i'll be a senior. a fourth of me wants to end it! but all the rest doesnt want me to. life in mandsci has not been like any other feeling i felt. here are a few scenes i like:

• when it's 9 or 10pm, you and your groupmates are walking to get home from a tough project, you feel the cold air of the night brush through your skin, the empty streets bestowing upon you the freedom to rant and talk, the lights of the streetlamps guiding your way through the rough night. :) it's quite a scene.
• last night, your whole classroom was practicing for like a play or dance or whatever, you go to school and see the drooping eyes of all your classmates........ but still when they find you staring at them, they simply smile. :D all boundaries crossed.
• times when you really cant get your precalculus problem and you're at the verge of crying because you cant just solve it, someone comes near you and teaches you. and even though you ask him or her to repeat it for three or four times, you end up getting it and thanking that person. he or she just walks away, not waiting for a praise or reward.
• the open forums; the way you cry; the way others cry... and how it strengthens the bond between class and room. :D
• the corny jokes, like mine, that are even though as corny as heck, will still make you laugh.

sigh. those are just a few. even though it is hard to be like this. always stressed and out of sleep. through all the crushes and crushees. through all the teachers and their loads of homework and tasks. through everything... mandsci in itself makes it worthwhile with friends and its charm. :)

on THAT matter. :)

sssssssssiiiiiiiiiiiggggggghhhhhhhh.

life, as i know it, is topsy turvy. XD it's pretty hard liking someone who doesnt like you but... you seem to want it that way. at least that's what i feel. ;)

well then, maybe because he makes me feel so safe and the way he comforts me is why i like him so much. :)) the way he's silent. the way he's like always there. i dont find him THAT good-looking but... it's this charm of his. X)

and no, i will not rant about this guy like the previous post. :))

i'm gonna rant about something else. XD if i like him and he doesnt like me, what should i do? tell him? or give up? it's pretty hard you know, especially if you're a girl. GIRLS have to wait. GIRLS have to hope that, that guy would like her. Girls cant just go up to a guy and tell him her feelings. why? the society dictates this as so, and it does seem a little desperate. XD

anyway. i dont know which path i chose, i'll just hope God would nmake the best decision in writing my Love Story. X)

an ode to someone who captivates me.

sigh. well this is not really an ode. it's just something that gives a click in the title :]] not that i want everyone to read this but well, i just like it that way :D

well i TOTALLY admire this guy. totally ADMIRE. nothing more. X]

the way he sings with his guitar just leaves me totally taken. he loves what he does and he enjoys it a lot. the emotion he shares is just magical. how he interacts people, how he talks and walks. his charm. his joy. well i know i'm not making any sense... but i dont have to. :]] sense is just the interpretation of the human mind of words and letters. as long as it makes sense to mine. :]]

his carefree attitude. his smile. his lyrics. his abs [oops!] his voice. his "i'll go wherever the wind takes me" attitude. we could just run away and he could sing to me forever into eternity. :]] siiiggghhhh. though finding a guy like this is totally impossible. unless you're somewhere out there... XD