Qui suis-je?

Bonjour! Je suis bien. Et toi?

Tu vas bien?

 

Je m’appelle Abba Marie Moreno.

Je suis une belle et jeune fille. =))

C’est ma photo.

 Oui, elle n'est pas moi. =)) Elle est Keira Knightley.

C'est moi. Je suis belle aussi. :))

J’ai dix-sept ans. Ma date de naissance c’est juillet vingt-huit mille neuf cent quatre-vingts treize.

Je suis philippine. Je parle anglais et tagalog.

J’habite gueventville II rue de Libertad, Mandaluyong.

 

Je ne travaille pas encore.

Je suis étudiante.

J’étudie la chimie à l'université Ateneo de Manila.

Mon cours, c'est "BS Chemistry with Materials Science Engineering."

  

Mon rêve, c’est aller à Paris. Oui, Paris. <3

Je voudrais être une écrivain. 

J’aime écriture. 

C’est ma vie.

 

Merci! À bientôt! 

Handsome Men Can't Be Hurt by Water.

Ouran High School Host Club

Okay, I may be the last anime-loving person to have watched this but i really like it. thumbs up. :D

well they're all charming by the way, and nooo. i will not use this blog entry to flaunt how gorgeous they are. [i'll do that in an album :)) ] well for some reason, nakarelate ang lola mo. [ meaning ako. did i use the vernacular language correct? :)) ]

watching the series was the total opposite of a lackadaisical experience. i find myself in the shoes of the characters and went into a reflection.

YOU: REFLECTION?!?

ME: yep. :))

okay. i know that this would sound shallow but yes i did feel that. i didnt ask you to read this anyway. basta ibubuhos ko puso ko dito. >.<

**Haruhi Fujioka lost her mother at an early age. she was smart and capable of being responsible of the things she had right now. she understood her parents and started to act independently. sound familiar? well. i didnt lose my mom, but i guess i grew up to be independent. not in the sense of money or anything but in my attitude. sooner or later, i got tired of being disappointed. i always wanted their attention. and i end up resented... rejected. tapos yun. NAGARAL ako. [at nagaaral pa rin ;) ] nang mabuti. somehow lahat ng pagkukulang nila sa kin ay binuhos ko sa report card ko. FUNNY. i was about to give up. i wanted to be cut loose. i dont want to be "good" anymore. tipong SUKANG SUKA na ko sa lahat ng nangyayari sa buhay ko. di naman ako masaya.

[to be honest, i think God wanted me to watch this. nakakatawa siguro sa'yo pero sa kin hindi.]

**Kyouya Ootori - so turn na niya ngayon. OO. kyouya is the third son of this super rich guy with lots of companies. having his brothers achieve a lot, he is expected to do the same but never surpass them. Frustrating, no? okay. it does not sound familiar. :)) EXPECTATION. you know my parents never expected me to achieve academically. actually they never expected much of me at all. all they want is for me to become a good...young...lady...with....initiative...common sense...manners.... and the list goes on and on. tipong yung mga gusto nila sayo inoonti-onti nila para hindi sila masisi. and i have lived with the fact that they were never satisfied with me. I know this sounds harsh but yea, maybe they didnt do it intentionally, but i grew up with that thought in mind. mali ang mga kaibigan mo, palpak, WALANG KWENTA... oh... sakkit no? sa estadong iyan, mataas na nga grades mo, never mo pa silang minura or talkedback, nauutusan ka na rin palabas ng bahay, never ka pang naglayas at nagttrabaho ka na rin sa loob ng bahay. grabe you guys are lucky.

**HIkaru and Kaoru Hitachiin- wala akong twin ah. :)) XD pero the story of these two is that they've always kept their world from our world. ayun. AKO. i can pretty tell you: NO ONE KNOWS ME. well a selected few may know me a lot, but they've never really known me fully. i've always kept some part of me away. i have secrets...dark dark secrets ;)  well the main issue is that i can never trust anyone fully. :| it is forgiveable, the world is a bad bad place ;P people, i am a pessimist. i heed all the bad things that could happen when one allows other people to sink in to what they are. well maybe i am missing a lot but that's just the way i am. and i guess the only person that could do that to me would be someone like tamaki or haruhi. :D but i reckon there wont be a person like that for now. dont mistake me friends, i trust you of course, it's just that no one would be ready yet to see me. :))

Ouran High School Host Club. the characters' morale are stupendous and people like that may or may not exist at all. but this series underscores one thing:

if you have people, friends--family, by your side, everything is worthwhile.

to carry your burden with you,

to offer faces you intend to paint with smiles,

to paint YOUR smile.

I guess God wanted me to learn this, as i was about to give up all things good and sensible. I wasnt alone and i need not be anyone else. Shallow ko no? di ko alam yun mga bagay na ganon. it's pretty easy to say those things. and it's damn hard for me to live 'em. :D

You just have to be yourself and not live up on what others expect of you. that's it.

 

isa tong napakahabang blog entry, at IKAW. na nakabasa nito. salamat. by reading this, you have somehow alleviated the burden. ;) astig ka, ang layo ng binasa mo. :D

 

so sa mga friends ko. SALAMAT :D very much.

i'm sorry i couldnt show you all of me, but i guess that would be just for tamaki-sama.

 

MY PRINCE. :))

haruhi did nothing but to study, but she met this wonderful guy. i remain faithful to my promise! :D

 

**wwooott feeling ko. :) XD he's a melodramatic idiot. :) sana may ganon rin ako. XD

DANCE! Tango :]

pasadoble :D

almost a senior. :)

(sigh.) bigayan ng stipend ngayon. :)) P1200 X) not enough for the hard work and the sleepless nights X)

anyway, that's not the point. today na it was given is like the 8th time i got it. WHOAH. X) third year na pala ako. it was just like yesterday that i was a freshman; feeling ultimately different. i remember the people i used to hang out with. back when i was in my first year, I DID NOT COME HOME AT PAST 7pm(during schooldays)! X)) all those people i left. all those people i miss. X|

second year came, and yeah. their almost the same people i am with right now.

same faces :) new phases :)

on days AND nights, that i thought i wouldnt make it alive, i actually did! i even learned how to do a project a night before the deadline :)) i learned that brown envelopes can actually save your life in keeping all those darn quizzes your teacher asked you to compile. i learned that all the stress, all the hard work, all the sleeplessness, is all worthwhile, when you have friends there beside you. awwww. :))

it's january 09. i remember my first day of high school, june 6 06. [666] other people thought it was the end of the world, but it was a beginning for ours. :D

a few more months i'll be a senior. a fourth of me wants to end it! but all the rest doesnt want me to. life in mandsci has not been like any other feeling i felt. here are a few scenes i like:

• when it's 9 or 10pm, you and your groupmates are walking to get home from a tough project, you feel the cold air of the night brush through your skin, the empty streets bestowing upon you the freedom to rant and talk, the lights of the streetlamps guiding your way through the rough night. :) it's quite a scene.
• last night, your whole classroom was practicing for like a play or dance or whatever, you go to school and see the drooping eyes of all your classmates........ but still when they find you staring at them, they simply smile. :D all boundaries crossed.
• times when you really cant get your precalculus problem and you're at the verge of crying because you cant just solve it, someone comes near you and teaches you. and even though you ask him or her to repeat it for three or four times, you end up getting it and thanking that person. he or she just walks away, not waiting for a praise or reward.
• the open forums; the way you cry; the way others cry... and how it strengthens the bond between class and room. :D
• the corny jokes, like mine, that are even though as corny as heck, will still make you laugh.

sigh. those are just a few. even though it is hard to be like this. always stressed and out of sleep. through all the crushes and crushees. through all the teachers and their loads of homework and tasks. through everything... mandsci in itself makes it worthwhile with friends and its charm. :)

it's depressing.

man. good thing i have my life outside school... the classroom really.

LIARS, CHEATERS, BACKSTABBERS.

well not all of my classmates. well not most of 'em either.

actually i find the people in the classroom quite nice. but the people i thought who were "NICE" arent actually what they seem to be. Manipulators : that's what they are. binding to what seemed to be a beneficial host; those parasites.

but my daughter is correct [hahahha kilala nio kung cno un?] i shouldnt be affected. those people suck, and they tell suckish things about me, and i should care why? i should not plot revenge. i should look at their brighter side. but if the opportune moment comes and i catch them. :] they better get ready.

this blog is not available for the viewing pleasure of other people, this will be our little secret.

the exams are finally over. :]

SIGH.

grabe. the hellish week is finally over. [classmate: arent you supposed to be doing Zoology? Me: yeah whatever. XD let me finish blogging first.]

the other tests were alright. i never knew what a blessing the guy who invented multiple-choices-tests. XD i hardly studied ever. hahaha. the first day of the exam - i was out by twelve, went home at three. XD second day- out be eleven- home by seven. XD today. out by eleven - home by twelve-thirty. wow.

got scolded pa. hahaha. [di kasi nagpapaalam eh.] XD it's not really something to be glad about cause i keep my parents worrying about me. well it's my fault but i'm kinda used to going home at seven or eight and by the time i get home, nobody seems to care. The family's finally starting to get together. got closer somehow. well from now on, magpapaalam na ko. XD hahahhaa. i'm such a bad girl. but dont they trust me that i dont go to bad places? XD

my gosh! Precalculus was hard - well i'm pretty used to having a difficult time struggling with numbers and variables. XD i like precalculus better anyway. PHYSICS -- MAN! where have i been all these physics discussions??? well i wasnt the only one, everybody agreed. IT WAS HARD. i would read the problem twice or thrice, and still end up guessing. hahahaha. it was full of calculations about mirrors, focal lengths, urggghhhh. bahala na si batman. XD

Bahala na si LORD. :D

hahahahaha. tests. no tests. what's the diff? XD i'm self-grounded. baka di ako makapagcelebrate ng adam sandler day. aww. simpsonism. DX

it's the start of the second quarter. i'd try to exert more effort this time. hahhahahha. :]

8-8-08 boyle reunion

hahaha. reunion ng mga boylers last friday.

it was soooo awesome. we weren't complete and there wasnt much action but hey it was sooo nice.

prince's house. we ate. we sang. we danced. we laughed.

ronald was more of the host of the event. he was singing so much hahahahhaha. angelica sang "Dancing queen". XD so nice. heehehhehehehe. tawa kami ng tawa. reminiscing on the memories ng boyle! walang expectation, walang malinis., walang kahit ano! basta masaya kami! :]

pagkatapos kumain at magkantahan at magsabhan ng mga naalala sa boyle, sumunod un sabihan ng crush sa classroom noon. kevin or ivan? cnung nanalo :)) after that nagsiuwian na cila.

 

***realizations - the school year might've ended but our bonds remain the same. others may have left but they will always be here in us. there might be people who have changed ever since we have parted but that's the way life is. they may change for the better or the worse, nonetheless, we'll always remember the way they were before. sooner or later we'll get into college, but we'll never forget each other. the past is the past but we have made more memories and we'll be making some more.

ANG PINAKA---- BOYLE IS THE BEST SECTION I HAVE EVER BEEN INTO. love ya all. XD

today ;)

today i woke up... dragging my way to get up... and it was like angels singing when rhea santos said that there was no classes today.

i ate breakfast and slept again. upon waking up, i only thought of GHOST HUNT. and NARU of course! :) i watched a little of naruto and off i went with ghost hunt and later on BOKURA GA ITA. :] man... YANO is soooo my type of guy :]

we ate lunch at home, a lot of food. ^^

i played hahaha. ravenhearst... soo cool, after that i took a bath and slept. i woke up. i was like whoah. my sister said ther were two strangers at our door. it was JC and ATE MITCH. :] with a poem and a gift :0. it was soo touchy.

later on, rona came and we headed for mcdo barangka, we ate, talked, laughed and saw mam bal :]] we left at about six and went home. rona watched meet the spartans before she left.

REALIZATIONS -- my life is so cool. it's not about the grades, or the other things, but how my friends treat me. i always thought i was alone, but hey, i wasnt. i'm not. :] my friends make it all better. how they made me laugh, their little tokens, those things mean a lot.

although i complain a lot, in the end i'll still say i love my life.

FRIENDSHIP ;]

uuuhh. where do i start? hahaha. :D

I LOVE THIS DAY TOO.

well it was simple but it was great.

we ate, we played, we sang? hahaha. but the best part of it was i got to be wih the people i want to be with. ;] we spoke of love, weirdness, and how embarassing the things we did. even though the people i were with hardly knew each other, they found their ways into each other. :) and i'm happy to know that. i was selfish this day, but that selfishness found good.

all those happy moments have been etched into my head. and it will never be forgotten. all those words have been recorded and will be ringing inside my head over and over.

the letter, the bracelet, the diploma. :0 i love it all!

MY FRIENDS OVER YOU!

Poetry is like being inLove

"Writing is like being in love..." Marjorie Evasco looked at me and said those beautiful words. I didnt know her personally or i wasnt a big fan of her works but we had one thing in common - we loved writing.

When she said those words to me, i knew how she felt. WRITING is like being in love. You create characters, stories, lives even! I felt like crying in front of her. I knew how she felt -- how good it was to write, to make people appreciate things written in paper!

BUT

Why cant i stand up for it? Why wont i do it for the rest of my life? *Has the world's nonsense standards engulfed me in its pitiful spiral of lust and death?

It's pretty sad to know. I LOVE WRITING and POETRY. but i cant stand up for it.

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today i was myself again. less than three.

today was AWESOME. and as jack black said..."there is no price to pay for awesomeness..." XD. Less Than Three or Simpsonism's Day out. Well we weren't really out cause we were at my house, but it was something like that.

As usual, i was running late cause it was hard to find a green top, it was discussed i would wear green, but i ended up wearing blue. XD suprisingly, i was first to arrive at 7-11. haha. it was a few minutes past 1oclock and i waited for angelica and charmaine.

As they arrived, we proceeded with the schedule. The much-awaited SLURPEE DRINKING CONTEST. man, that was one big cup. it was soo big that we decided to walk while drinking it. We couldnt finish it so we decided that the winner would be the one with the least amount in her cup. haha. of course, since i tried my best not to drink the whole morning, i won XD.

next, the movies. KUNG FU PANDA and WHAT HAPPENS IN VEGAS on DVD. hahaha. it was soooo fun. [ang kati ng itsura ni charmaine kapag nanunuod. XD]

we went out afterwards. brought out my guitar and sang "Remembering Sunday" by All time low. :D it's immaculate. i'll post our vid in our myspace.

The rain started to pour then so their time of departure from our house was delayed. it was fun singing in the rain. and as the rain grew stronger, i was tempted to run in it. haha. and so i did.

and do you know? i felt like myself again. i felt free from the earthly burdens i carry each day of my fudged up life. i was everything i wanted to be. i was just me. running in the rain. [mukha lang akong tanga kc may hawak akong umbrella... tpos umuulan] but it was nice.. i didnt have to please anybody. it was an escape. at those moments... i realized that i didnt want to study, or to be leader-ish, or to be in love, or to please anybody and most especially fake my smile everyday.

LIFE IS WONDERFUL - like jason mraz said. life IS wonderful.

why waste your time trying to achieve things that hardly matter? things that wouldnt make you happy? i can feel the self-pity now as i'm typing this down. I wasnt really happy. I wasnt me.

this is getting pretty long and whoever is reading this must be really patient. so here it is.

PLEASE. help me be myself again. EXPECTING me to get high grades, to be responsible, to be nice, isnt going to help. i want to be the way i was before. [but nicer perhaps XD]

So CHARMAINE & ANGELICA. i owe you big time. <3

writing about my random reality...

sigh.

things are pretty light this week, and that is sooooo GOOD! i love it. :) less homework. less work. more fun. and no worries.

i'm quite astounded by Panic at the Disco's Northern Downpour. will be writing a review about that.

been eating ice cream. ya'll know what that means. X| it's really quite hard to be here right now. though this is how i choose to live my life. pressure. confusion. uh.

wonder what will happen this week.

haha. i wrote a new poem! it's quite short really. HELLO is the title :) it's quite cute.

 

ARGH!!! dont ask me what's wrong cause i wont tell any of you. XD typical me, tries to solve everything by herself but really she cant.

after hellweek. :)

SIGH.

i never thought i would make it through. hahhahahahhaha. i just flunked how many quizzes last friday? uh. let me see. math, statistics, physics... hahaha. it's fine though. At this time of trouble, i was able to see which teachers would give us considerations and it turns out to be those teachers we insult behind their backs. That is so ironic.

i was able to talk to ate mitch! it has been so long since we last saw each other. i was with charmaine [too bad our slurpee drinking contest was postponed] and JC. awwww.

recently, it was my mom's birthday and we also had a family reunion. Everybody was there. The problem is we didnt know each other. It was pretty sarcastic in a family reunion where we would introduce ourselves like it was the first day of school. It was a long time after all. Things have changed, the last time they saw me was when i was two years old. Our family is pretty controversial concerning the fights and all but hey, if we can take time to go to one place, we can fix things right? the next one i think will be on july 27, lolo tony's first death anniversary and a day before my birthday. pretty scary.

SO, WHAT HAVE I LEARNED? --i have learned that quizmasters in DOST sponsored contests are cute XD. joke. time flies by so fast. homework should be a second priority X)family reunions were fun after all. it's better relax knowing that you deserve it. :)

 

HELL WEEK.!.

 

haha. first blog entry.

now all i can say is: FUDGE.

I mean, HELLO?!? i'm so fudging busy, and all hws need to be passed at the same time! This is not fair. We're human too ya know. sigh. no one would hear my pleas here.

Anyway, Wednesday will be HELL DAY. It would also be the end of HELL WEEK. Guess you guys know all about that. :) it's gonna be rough, it's gonna be tough, it's gonna be payback time you ugly freaks!!! hahaha.

Though i must admit i am pretty stressed. that is soooo suckish. anyway after hell day, it will be all over. i just have to catch up then.

anyway, hell week just got worse. haha. i was so psyched up about HIM. and awww. it's so sad. anyway i'll be here if ya change yer mind :D

it ends here.