Ang Kwento ng Shaded Circles -- January 18, 2010

pero actually, january 19 na. =)) at 3:37 na ng umaga. :) Gumawa ako ng calculus, nagnotes sa filipino at gumagawa rin ng notes sa chem at TLE. ang lupit =)) XD <galing kay louise b. ang title =)) >

anyway. eto na nga yung blog ko. sabi ko sayo Johnray e. magbblog ako =)) so eto naaa.

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it was today that the UPCAT results came out.

it was one of the most anticipated results of college entrance tests for those who took it. it was a prestigious school of course, it was a big deal if you got in. if you didnt, maybe it was the quota or maybe it isnt for you.

so anyway, it was the last of the big four to release results. UP, Ateneo, La Salle and UST. all their results have been released to happy/sad senior students of high school.

we were at the classroom, it was still morning, then a text came out. cherry mae passed UP, then gel. their parents went to UP, i think. everyone got agitated. people started calling their parents and stuff. after a few hours, Charmille announced a few of our classmates who passed UP. people even got more tense and excited. even the atmosphere was tense, it was raining now and it was very humid. and just before our economics class started: BOOM. the results of the UPCAT were posted on the net. the people in the room found their ways to the results. :)) people were shouting and screaming and congratulating one another.

I was still staring at all of them. :)

My brain thought: Are they really happy? Or havent they realized that this is really all over?

 

Oh boy.

High school is ending. And i've been blogging about that the whole year. And heaven knows i cant get over it. Maybe that's why i cried.

amidst all of the excitement and sheer bliss my classmates were experiencing--and even though I was informed i passed UP as well--i cried.

I cried because a part of me is denying the fact that this would all be over soon. A part of me cried because I was going to ateneo--a lot of my classmates are going to UP. That same part of me felt cold. I was going to go through college, partly alone.

well i guess i'm exaggerating =)) i'm not gonna be alone. actually i already know a few people going there. :) but the thing is that,

 

BACK TO ZERO ANG LAHAT.

 

and i really think i'm weak because i cant accept that.

 

I've gained friends in high school--great wonderful friends, i've met the best teachers ever, shared unforgettable moments with people here, found love, gained confidence in myself, learned how to trust others and myself...

I'VE GAINED EVERYTHING, TO LOSE IT ALL.

 

Parang ganun yung sentiments ko. =)) Excited akong magcollege. pero part of me ay natatakot at ayaw mawala to. ganun lang talaga siguro akong tao, masyadong mapaghalaga.

siguro emo lang talaga ako, at naisip ko ang mga ganitong bagay =))

 

4:02 am na. nagugutom na ko. nagluluto na ng almusal. :)) papasok pa ko at mag-peperiodical exams =)) Wala akong naaral XDDD woohooo!

sige sige. aalis na ko, may one hour pa bago magfive. magnnotes pa ko sa TLE. : )

IV - Calcium Directory

Haha. bakit ngayon ko lang naisip na iupload ito. :)) XD anyway, andaming nagtatanong e =)) ayan. :D

How I Spent the First Decade of the Millenium.

Well yeah. I have to do this sort of thing before the year ends. :)) so it's been like ten years since the new year i remember, i was holding a mug--the design was there were letters celebrating and they spelled out Millenium. yeah. it was still all so vivid. XD

ano na nga bang ginawa ko sa buhay ko? :)) hmmm.

• hmm. nag-aral ako for the past 10 years. <well dapat lang talaga>
• well, i learned how to write and enjoy it. :D so bale, i've been writing for 5 years. :)
• ah, for 10 years, anime lover ako! wooooo! mabuhay ang anime! XD
• I got sent to the guidance 1 time. :)
• I was late to school, how many times? Zero, beybe. XD
• Times absent? hmm. siguro mga 20 - 30 times. :) <dahil sa sakit, pagkatamad o pagddrama, o kunyari may sakit XD >
• Nagdrama nang 1000 times dahil sa pag-iisip ng course ko sa college. XD
• Been closer to God for like 4 years. <thanks to the Bible Study nila kuya paul! :) >
• Never pa nagboyfriend. <ew.> XD 
• Na-inlove nang 3 beses.
• Na-heartbroken nang 3 beses.
• Nagkacrush nang Positive-Infinity na beses. XXDD <hanggang sa loob ng anime e. XD >
• Nagbago ng hairdo 1 time. :)) yeah. ngayong fourth year lang. XD
• Nakipagsabunutan ng 1 time. XD hi to Paula dehesa. XD
• Nabangga rin ako ng bisikleta at nagkablack-eye ng isang beses. :))
• Nagtangkang maglayas ng ilang beses.
• Ginustong mamatay ng ilang beses rin. [emo XD]
• Nagkaron ng mga astig na kaibigan. :)
• Fortunately, kasama pa rin ang pamilya. :D
• Kinaya ang mga pagsubok ng buhay at humihinga pa rin hanggang ngayon.
• at, mali pala, 4 na beses akong na-inlove. :)
• Naging optimist. [sa wakas!]
• At ngayon ay medyo excited at kinakabahan sa palapit kong pagkokolehiyo. :D

I want to see the world :D 2010 would be fine start. :)

But I wont go unless you all come with me. :>

 

Happy New Year Guys! <advanced happy new year rather. :D>

I hope this would be a fine year for all of us. :)

Reflections -- Pour Etre Belle :) [and a little something about plants :)]

Okay the previous blog was just sort of narrating the things i did, i would want to remember that someday. :))

So eto na. Bunga ng pagiisip isip and pagmumuni muni. :)

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Pour Etre Belle

--Hm. i will seriously miss these seven girls, plus one! :D gel, mae, sarmie, faith, mira, ananda, sharlyn and kaira. :D this was really an overwhelming experience. God has really blessed us. :D

To be honest, TRIP LANG TO. i mean, we didn't actually plan or aimed at getting into the final four. We just wanted to know what it felt like to be there. We were graduating after all. :) It was just something to get fun out of. It was seriously fun, seriously tiring, and in some times, the tension was really high. trust me, honey, you don't like it when girls are in bad moods. :))

i learned a lot about these girls. In between practices or in breaks, we'd talk about guys, or our parents, friends, problems, and it all brought us together. Yung tipong akala mo ikaw lang ang ginaganon ng magulang mo, yun pala may karamay ka! :)) haha! Late na kaming umuuwi dahil sa mga practice, nauubos ang pera dahil sa costume at dun sa collection. Nagbibihis nang harap-harapan. :)) kakaiba talaga!

it's fun finding sister in all of them.

we weren't exactly talented. I guess our talent was that when we our together, we are able to create a bulwark of confidence. When we are together, everybody shines. When we are together, we are talented. We are like pieces of one breathtaking puzzle. :D

Sure, some people didn't like us. Moreover, some people resented us and hated us. They booed us off the stage--kahit batchmate namin sila, it was a depressing thought. But fairly, i dont think it's something to be depressed about. Our classmates, family and friends were there. and that's all we needed. If other people didn't respect us, probably, other people didn't respect them as well. :) We weren't as talented as joanne verzo or as entertaining as the EKboys, but i believe, kahit ako lang, we were special in a way that i could remember it forever. :)

We had each other.
I love you Pour Etre Belle.

I will miss the times we were together--practicing, eating, making the drama, fighting, dressing up, getting psyched up and flopping and succeeding on the stage. :)

I will not lie. Pour Etre Belle could be gone forever. We are graduating after all. Siguro matagal tagal ang pagbabalik namin sa stage bilang PEB. baka nga hindi na e. Though i'm not sad.

as i've said before--LOSING SOMETHING MAKES IT MORE VALUABLE.

i could not have a lost a greater thing. :)

We could stop performing, but memories last forever. :D

Shabuya! Sha-Sha-Shabuya! Roll call!
We're PEB!
This thing was crazy!
You've watched us, baby.
I'll miss them, really.

 
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Okay, that's my Pour Etre Belle Reflection. :) sisingit lang ng isa pang reflection.
So yesterday, nagMTAP, arni and i planned to watch anime at my house but due to the unfortunate circumstances, hindi kami natuloy. The CAT officers headed off to Paolo Rodri's house to deliver the red shirts. I was supposed to go with them but i saw an offer i could not resist. :D

So ayun. nagrereview sila anjilo, louise at bruxelle sa faculty room. I saw Mr. Patron there and Mrs. Fabon. Tapos sinundan ko sila. Tapos ayun! nagtatanim sila sa likod! PLANTS! :) wow. all of the students helping them were guys. I was like: I wish I was a guy, so i could help.

So paikot-ikot ako dun sa likod. Gustong makatulong. :)) nanggugulo. :)) hhaha! sabi ko kay mam fabon, gusto kong tumulong, tapos yehey! pinayagan ako. sinabi ko kila arni hindi na ko sasama. :) edi yun, umalis na sila, <medyo gutom na ko nun dahil alauna na wala pa kong kinakain> pumunta ako sa faculty room, andun sila bruxelle. edi hinintay ko silang matapos ng two. dumating sila kathy, magSSM daw sila. edi yun. nagSM sila, hinintay akong makakain nila louise at umalis sila.

They tried to convince me to come with them because all the guys i'd be with would be like GUYS, and that i was already tired, which was true. but I really really want to plant. :)) really.

So i went back to school, i already found mam fabon, planting, i was so amazed at the simplicity of it all. how man could give life. how easy it was to support life. it was breathtaking. I watched how mam fabon do it. and i tried right after. <Except the digging part, my girlish way of holding the shovel could not really handle the rocky solid earth of Mandsci>

The mosquitoes were biting me. Things were crawling everywhere. The smell was barely tolerable. But, i really did enjoy it. Corny nga siguro pero, It was magical for me. :) ang galing talaga. The ability to nurture life was in my hands. I looked at the plants as i planted them, it felt so rewarding. <sure from time to time, naiisip ko yung photosynthesis tapos ung mga krebcycle stuff, pero most of the time i was busy thinking of how marvelous the act was>

Nakakarealize lang na, ang dali dali lang magplant, pero kahit 10% of the school, or the entire world, could not possibly volunteer to do this. a sad truth.

Syempre nagenjoy ako at naastigan ng bonggang bongga. Pero naastigan din ako sa mga nakasama ko. :)) nakilala ko sina Kenneth, Eriko, Wences, Janssen, Ylrem, Jerome and uhm, nakasama ko muli sina Eman, Stephen at Rene. at medyo andun si bruce nung una. :) rocks sila. :)) hehehe.

cant wait to be back next saturday. actually i cant wait to go back to school. :)) i want to talk to the plants---yung mga pinangalanan na Wences, at mga Eriko, mga Kenneth, haha! EEE!

seriously, i was tired then. And every time, i stood up after planting something, my vision would actually go blurry and my head would hurt, but, again, it was an offer i could not resist. :)

Ultimate Hell Week 2009 is over! :)

OKAY. late blog. medyo dapat kahapon ko pa to ginawa pero hey. :D ngayon lang ako freeeee. :D

the past week has been so hellish for me super! I mean, i had to do our documentation binder, attempt to make a script for filipino, edit the music for our MGT after practice, actually practice, keep up with my missed homework and get harassed by two teachers because of the things they asked me to do. :) SIGH. i feel like supergirl!

Monday -- the first day of the week. i didn't really stay up late the past night but i guess Monday was okay. It was the first day of practice. Got home at about 9:30. Brought a laptop, a digicam [because they told me that photoshoot for Project Citizen was today] and extra clothes.

Tuesday -- I stayed up late the past night, i got caught up in playing Plants Vs Zombies. Made homework and typed the Steps for the documentation binder--i wasn't done. I got home at 9:40something. We practiced again. I brought a laptop, a digicam [they told me the photoshoot was today] and more extra clothes.

Wednesday --I stayed up late, i slept at about 11:30pm. I hadn't had any decent sleep yet. Made homework, finished typing the steps, i received the reflection notes this day, so i was bound to NOT sleep tonight because my deadline was tomorrow. So i had to type 15 pages worth of reflection from PC members. Edit and layout pictures. attempt to make the script in filipino. Finish editing our music in MGT. We had no practice today--instead i went to SM to look for costume, i got home at about seven. I brought a laptop, a digicam [and yet again, they postponed the shoot] and brought home my books for school. Imagine that in SM! gah! ang bigat! :)) That was the freakiest day ever!

So i realized right about at eight oclock that i cannot finish my documentation binder. i was not halfway through typing all its content. I hadn't and couldn't make my script anymore. I will not meet the deadline. SOOOOO. i decided to become absent! :))

Thursday-- yeah i was absent. I slept at twelve the past night. I woke up at about nine. Best sleep of the week. :)) So when i woke up at about eightfortyfive [that rounds up to nine :))], i went out to get one piece of hotdog and went back to my room and started typing the remaining five pages of reflections. I had to layout pictures after. I finished everything at about oneoclock. I ate lunch at about one. I had told mam tirones the past night that i would go to school for half the day or whatever's left. So i did. I took a bath and raced to school at about two. The guard didnt want to let me in but luckily mam tirones did. :D i was in school uniform, BECAUSE I THOUGHT THE PHOTOSHOOT WAS TODAY. So i brought a gigantic paper bag--PEB wanted to see the costumes. I brought the laptop and digicam and my USB's. I went to the PC adviser and gave her the docbinder. Mam dolar found me and nagged me about the program i wasn't able to do yet. :| i was like dammmnnn. at about three, after i was harassed by so many people [i was welcomed in the classroom though], i went to the AVR to practice.

After school, we practiced at louise's. i went home at nine. I had to finish our music in MGT--i put it off for the documentation binder. I slept at one. :O it was the night before the final night! :)) and i was so tired! :)) so i slept at one, but i didnt tell you i finished it. So i didnt.

Friday -- i went to school. Had a long test in english. I did well--considering that i was in serious lack of sleep and under great fatigue and stress. i got excused because of project citizen. IT TURNS OUT WHAT I DID WAS STILL DUE FOR EDITING! so i was like, nakakaasar na ha, parang never enough. crap. i was so pissed. what's worse is that mam dolar saw me, and BOOOM! i still wasn't able to finish the program. She went on with something like: WE CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT THE PROGRAM. and i was like: okay mam, i'll do it. So, while i was doing project citizen, i was making the english program. I was literally running all over the place--to the office, where Mam Bullanday was printing our documentation binder, to the conference room, where PC members were and to the faculty, to get pictures or simply stay there because someone was using my laptop or i just wanted to hide from Mam Resu. :)) So i layouted the english program and luckily and thankfully, louise helped me. So technically he was harassed in my place. :) THANKS MARI! :)

i finished my academic duties at about eleven. I ate lunch right after. I got dressed for practice. While they were practicing, i was finishing our music. Did i mention that i brought two bags worth of clothes? A laptop? a digicam? [yung photoshooot ngayon lang natuloy!!] haha! At about the 1 or 2, Mam dolar saw me infront of the classroom. PALPAK ka talaga. that's what she said. I was to tired too get pissed. :)) I had forgotten to put my title as english president and my full name wasn't there. SORRY. i was so tired a. She wanted me to make my script since i was the emcee for tuesday. I asked to joyce to help me. again, i was harassed :)) so i was tired. The class finished a meeting. PEB members could go home and freshen up. I didnt go home. Instead, i went to faith's house. We freshened up and got to school at about five.

Performances were from six to eight something. :) I am so proud of course, that even though i slept at one, and seriously lacked sleep and was stressed to the max, i was able to perform. :)) rock! it wasn't as good as our practices but hey, after it all, I WAS FREE! i was on the verge of crying after the announcement of the EKboys winning, but i'd reserve that for later. So we ate at Mcdo. got home at ten-- i seriously had a lot of things to bring!. took a bath. played. and slept at about eleven.

i then proved right there, that i should be proud that i had gone through God's challenges. He guided me and protected me. I maybe tired but hey, how many people could put up with that huh? :)) I am supergirl! :))

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So i was depressed from saturday to about wednesday. i'd have to thank Francis R for cheering me up! :) thanks a lot! thanks to louise! you took pictures and assisted PEB! Yvon! for editing the documentation binder! Joyce! Kaira! :) and everyone who got worried about me since i was absent.:D God is good to surround me with caring people like YOU! :D

Senior Year -- First Half. :)

Pics inside the classroom. outside the classroom. Pics with friends. Pics of inanimate objects. uhhh. Pics nung science thingy. Pics ni JP!! XD Pics ng mga Love team!! :)) XD Pics of Developmental Reading reports!!! :)) uhhh.. all these things in the FirstHalf of the School year. ;)

Ang Black/White Board ng Calcium. :)

haha! mga kung ano anong nakasulat sa white and blackboard natin! XDDD ang cute. :) ;> :D

De La Salle University College Entrance Test

Start:	Oct 18, '09
Location:	De La Salle University :D

Hello! ;)

A Piece of You. [Part Two -- Fragment of Imagination]

 

6 --- Spirited Away

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Seeing from her perspective... She didn't have the appetite to eat dinner. It was terrible; just so terrible. He let me walk away, just like that. just like THAT. Maybe i just don't matter.

She picked up the remote control for the television. She turned it on.

Runaway Bride. This the part where the man proposes...

"...But I also guarantee, that if i dont ask you to be mine, i'll regret it for the rest of my life. Because i know in my heart... that you're the only one for me."

DAMN! Freaking chick-flick. She turned off the TV. Way to go to make me feel worse than ever. Well then, i mustn't be the only one for him. She turned on the computer.

She wasn't really hoping to see him online, she was checking her mail [like what she does regularly] and was suprised to be PMed by Cy.

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sidi_cy: What's your problem?
annaliezl: What problem? :P
sidi_cy: :)) You can't hide from us, we saw you two. what happened?
annaliezl: Uhhhh? :))
annaliezl: well, you know all about that, my problem...HIM. i just confronted him about it.
sidi_cy: You know, there might be just uhh, knots in the reality that's why you can't just seem to communicate with him.
annaliezl: Freaking reality, what great timing. =)) what's that, every time i talk to him, something goes horribly wrong? =)) whatever.
Do you think he'll get what i meant?
sidi_cy: Yea, i guess so, he's not slow or anything.
annaliezl: Dude, you know what, i think, if this continues to happen, whatever feelings i have for him, might just..uh.. go away.
sidi_cy: Why? Doesn't absence make the what go what?
annaliezl: Absence makes the heart grow fonder.
well i dont know, it just feels that way. Well i'm just trying to hold on to whatever that happened before. I like him, and i'll stick to him.
sidi_cy: tsk tsk. Why dont you just tell him that you love him? :))
annaliezl: DUDE!!! WTH no. :))
sidi_cy: If that doesn't wake him up, nothing will.
annaliezl: Patrick told me never to do that.
sidi_cy: Do you remember the story about the flower and the lady? The lady really wanted some flowers, so she gave hints to her husband that she wanted flowers. But she was given none. When she told him that she wanted flowers, her husband finally gave her flowers. Do you get it?
annaliezl: Well, yea. maybe. BUT DUDE! that's like. EVERYTHING! You just asked me to give my ALL! :))
sidi_cy: I'm not asking you. You're asking you. You're the one who wants something to happen. It's like asking you. =))
annaliezl: It so sucks that you are making sense. =))
sidi_cy: Well you're the one who made the sense out of it. :))
annaliezl: DAMN! :)) hey, do you think that i love him?
sidi_cy: Dunno. ask you.
annaliezl: :| damnn. :))
sidi_cy: Well the fact that you're having problems about these, i think that counts, right?
annaliezl: I LOVE HIM?! ew :)) i feel so unlike myself about it. [total dude moment]
sidi_cy: =))
annaliezl: [back to reality] OMGosh! WTH! I'm what in who?
sidi_cy: Dude, you are so in-you-know-what with him.
annaliezl: What? :)) Damn, I love him. I am still in shock.

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After the mind-boggling conversation with Cy, she turned off her computer. It was about ten pm. She got ready for bed and lied down.

I love him.

I love him.

I love him?

Do i really love him? Since, i've been ranting so much about it. i don't feel that i do. GAH! i dont know. it's like i've poured out my feelings to different friends, that i feel that there's nothing left.

 

Maybe i don't love him anymore.

Oh well... if these feelings i grow out of, it's his loss. if i don't, well then, he's lucky.

She closed her eyes, prayed and fell asleep.

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7 --- The Golden String

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Getting ready for work--while printing his due paper--while fixing his backpack--while fixing his hair--while doing all the things he put off, John hurriedly tried to finish everything and wanted to get to the office early. He wanted to catch Anna alone.

Before getting inside his car, he checked his phone. No new messages. He felt a slight tickle of pain. He got into his car and zoomed to the office.

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Anna woke up great. She felt renewed somehow. She ate a big breakfast, took a long bath and got ready for work. She wasn't early today, but hey, she felt good. 

She picked up her phone, No new messages. I dont mind, if that's the way he wants to play, then fine. I dont care. She smiled and called a taxi.

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8 --- Fruits Basket

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"Wow, Anna, you look gorgeous today, You're blooming." Patrick complimented Anna.

"I feel good too." Anna smiled and went to her desk. She felt different.

Everyone could see a sudden change in Anna. There was something different in her smile, her laugh, everything. Nothing really has changed, but somehow it's different.

Cy tapped Anna's shoulder. Hey won't you talk to that guy? he said as he pointed towards John. There's nothing to talk about, she replied.

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Wow, she looks so beautiful today--stunning really. Wonder, what happened. Was i the one uh, keeping her from being like this? said John while he took a glance at her. He wanted to talk to her this morning, suprisingly, she arrived late. I need to talk to her after work. he thought and was invited by his friends to have lunch.

As he was stepping out the door, he looked at her.

She looked at him.

They caught each other's stare.

She looked away, as though in pain, and continued to talk to Emy, her deskmate.

John was tugged by his friends. They walked away.

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9 --- Faster than A Kiss

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Half an hour past 6pm, John approached Anna. Could i talk to you for a sec? he asked her. Sure, no problem. she replied. They went outside the office and went to a place where there officemates couldn't hear or see them.

John held Anna's hand... 

 Anna, he started to talk, you're the greatest person in the world. Even though, i acted like a dumb twit, you still cared. I couldn't reply or do anything that you expected because i was afraid. I didn't want to take risks of uncertainty. And i feel terrible about it.

I want you to know, that i will keep my promise that I will never leave you.

I love you, Anna, so very much.

 

Anna looked away, removed her hand from his. She turned around. She didn't know how to react to what he said.

Inhale. Exhale.

She turned around and glanced at John---who was looking at her---and looked away again.

She put her hands on her chest--she felt a heartbeat. Though it was different. It wasn't the same as it was before. She couldn't feel the butterflies in her stomach anymore. It was gone.

She loves him in some point, but not the way as she cared for him before.

 

She faced John...

I don't know what to feel about what you said. It's just--it's soo---weird. I mean, do you really just tell me this now because you thought that i'd leave you? Well something like that, i mean, i don't feel the same way now.

You've had me hanging on for too long that it's almost impossible to hold on after what you did yesterday. I mean, how could you just let me walk away?

I already felt that, you didn't love me, that you had let me go., and i decided to forgive myself and let you go. I loved you.

I'm sorry.

 

These were the words he was afraid to hear. He felt excruciating pain. He couldn't move. His muscles seemed to have weighed tons. His eyes seemed to be transfixed on the floor.

She tapped his shoulder and held his face, You were one sweet memory. she said, and started to walk off.

 

The words from the movie rung inside his head...

"...But I also guarantee, that if i dont ask you to be mine, i'll regret it for the rest of my life. Because i know in my heart... that you're the only one for me."

No, i can't let her walk away this time. An invisible force got his muscles working and he grabbed her hand.

He held her close.

I can't let you walk away this time, 'cause probably i'll regret it for the rest of my life and haunt me until i die. he began to speak; she listened attentively.

I love you---and i dont mind if you dont love me right now. Because, that's just how love is right? Even if that person doesn't reply, or treats you like you're invisible, you still love that person. she began to blush because he just narrated what she did.

Because when you're in love, you will take all the risks for that person. he continued.  

 

 

And i guarantee you, i will make you fall in love with me again.

 

 

Those were his final words to her. He let her go. She stood there looking at him. Blushing and laughing at the same time. What he said, it made her feel warm inside. It was far beyond than being said I love you. It was a courageous thing to say. She felt more thanever, that this guy from the office, loved her.

She raised her eyebrow and asked him, Can you really do it? Well i'll be the judge of that. She blinked and smiled at him, the way she did before. He smiled, he felt the warmth she had for him before.

Sure I can, he said, did you see your face a while ago? It was cherry red. He laughed.

She blushed again, a little, and pinched him. He held her hand and they walked off.

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That night, before Anna went to bed, she picked up her cellphone and sent a text message.

"Goodnight." it read.

In less than a minute, her cellphone rang--she received a new text message.

"Goodnight. Goodnight. [there are two goodnight's because i'm trying to make it up to you for last time. :) " it read. it was from John.

She smiled, prayed and went to sleep.

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Well, it wasss too late. :) but suprisingly, John bought himself time and was able to win her over! :) sweeet. [you know, i'm beginning to think that i watch and read too many shojo manga and anime :)) ] Whatever happens next, i do not know. their story ends there. :) I guess, I Love You isn't always the words that could fix everything. Grabe kinilig ako sa pagsusulat nito! :> :)) hoped you all liked it. :D

A Piece of You. [A Short Story--My first Chick-Flick Material :))]

A Piece of You

By: Abba Marie Moreno

 

1 -- When We Were There.

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The first time they met wasn't exceptional. It was the clockwork "Hi 'name', this is 'name'." sort of thing. It was a bright and clear sky they were under in. A sky of about 12.30 pm or 1.00 pm. It was a few degrees hotter than usual but the day was fine. It has been almost four years since that day.

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Getting ready for work--while printing her due paper--while fixing her purse--while brushing her hair--while doing all the things she was supposed to be doing last night, Anna scurried through her apartment as she was almost late for being early at work. [She loves punctuality.]

As she was stepping out the door, she grabbed her phone that was lying on the end table. She hurriedly got into a taxi and sighed as she sat down. "Whew, what a tiring morning. I should really remind myself not to put off such things." she thought. She picked up her phone, "No messages, huh." She paused for a minute, then quickly punched in letters onto her phone and pressed send.

It read: "Good morning."

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Lax and carefree, John got ready for work. He ate breakfast, took a bath, got dressed and drove off. In ten minutes time, he was already at the company. Out of the car and walking, he got his phone. "Two messages, for what this time?" he thought.

One read: "Goodnight."

And the other: "Good morning."

He smiled for a second and continued to walk to the office.

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2 --- 5 cm/s

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It was a normal day in work. Anna had fun with her friends and was able to reorganize her work place. While placing sticky-note reminders on the documents, she glanced at John. "He's quiet, i wonder if he's alright. He hasn't talked to me today--OHHH. Why do i bother?"  She stuck the sticky-notes and walked off with Cy and Patrick.

She had fun being with her friends' company and went back to the office. She picked up her things and was about to go home. She said goodbye to everyone in the office. They goodbye-d back. She said goodbye to Him.

"Bye." he uttered.

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She paid the cab driver and went to her apartment. Was she frustrated or angry or disappointed? She did not know.

"Okay. How do i react to that? This guy that told me he liked me, is ignoring me and not replying to me and------ One word, he tells me one word, and it's B-Y-E. DAMN!"

She grabbed the container full of cereal and took out her frustration into the sweet packets of carbohydrates.

"Ohhh, i just can't understand it. Even though he acts like i'm a nobody most of the time, and sometimes he's just the greatest jerk in the world. Why do i bother sending Goodnight's and Goodmorning's, even though he won't reply?" she sighs.

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She looks back, Why the hell do i like this guy? It was mid-September, she was working late into the night in the office. It was a big company event, the boss relied on her to organize the schedules for the exhibit and to finalize everything. Everybody was counting on her. 10, 11, 12... the hours just went passing by.

 She wasn't even done yet. She felt so alone.

Her knees were trembling, she was about to cry. Tears were about to roll down her cheeks, suddenly, there was a knock on the door. She quickly put back her resolve and started working again. It was John- a guy in the office. He passed a folder of the missing documents and asked: "Aren't you done yet?"

She stared at him with a lour: "Does it look like i'm done?"

He chuckled, "Sorry, sorry, it was a standard question. Here's the last batch of the files you were waiting for. Surely, you must be done now?"

"Good, now i'm almost done! i just have to doublecheck these and i'm off. You going home now?" she asked.

"It depends. Are you?" He replied.

"Nah, not yet. i'll try to finish this, and sleep tomorrow at the exhibit." she smiled. "You should get some rest."

"You sure?" he insisted.

"Actually, i do want someone to wait up for me." she said. now, this was the real her.

He turned around, went back to his desk. He popped in some earphones and sat down.

She stared at him for a few seconds and got back to work. "I never really noticed, he's quite cute. Is he going to wait up? Wow."

She finished at about 2am. She poked him and both went home. He drove her home and told her to get some good and well-deserved sleep. He turned around and went to his car.

That night/morning or whatever, she got into bed smiling. He wasn't just some guy in the office anymore.

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"Gah! Why did i have to fall for that?" She smiled. It was the opportune moment to catch a workaholic-and-independent-type like her. There had been encounters like the flashback. Both already know that they "like" each other [nothing more--they had said it in one of their conversations]. In some days, he would be tickly-sweet. but in some, he was totally indifferent. He acted like she was invisible. Well at least, that's what she felt.

Even though he was like that, she was liking him more and more. They would talk when they were alone. They would eat together, once in a while. She found a haven in him; in the darkest hours, he was there. but recently, he hasn't.

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3 --- Seventh Period is a Secret

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She found herself crying the past weeks. The weight of all the pressures she has been coping with has finally fallen into her. She needed him more than ever. But he seemed busy at work. I should probably stop myself. He has more important matters to attend to.

Everytime she tried to talk to him, he just seemed to push her away. She felt terrible about it--liking him and needing him. Instead, she found refuge in her friends and two guys that have liked her before. When she was available, other guys were comforting her, it wasnt him. In the times that she was expecting that he would be there, some other guy would fill his shoes.

There are many guys out there that would be happy to have me, but why the heck do i want to stay with somebody like him? Does he really care? Does he? He told me before that he would never leave me, is this even true? She felt terrible. Maybe he didn't like her the way she thought he would. Who was she anyway?

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4 --- His and Her Circumstances

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Half an hour past 6pm, Anna approached John. She said goodbye and asked him if they could talk. He said sure, smiling. Not knowing that something is wrong. They went to a place where their colleagues couldn't see or hear them.

"John, what--wh--what do you feel towards me?" she asked with a trembling voice and a sad look on her face.

"Huh? Why are you asking me that?" He replied surprised to hear the question.

"I mean, sometimes i just dont feel like you care. Well, you're not supposed to or something but---uhhh." She couldnt finish what she was saying.

"Okay, i get it." He replied.

"Do you?! Really?" Her voice was now laced with a hint of anger.

"I want to talk to you, but you're not there. I PM you but you sign off or dont reply. I text you but you don't reply either. There are so many things i want to tell you, but i can't. You make me feel like--like--- uhhh. nevermind. I just want a piece of you and it seems that you can't even give me that." she went on. She was already stopping her tears, but she wanted to stay firm in what she said. She glanced at him, he looked shocked.

She turned around. She started to take steps. She prayed to God that he would tap her shoulder and talk to her. He didn't. She walked away crying.

He was left alone.

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5 --- Doubt

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She had already walked away. He didn't even bother to ask her to stay.

"Idiot. Idiot." he told himself. Maybe she would be happier if someone better than me would take care of her.

He looked down on his phone. He opened his inbox, true, there were short messages of concern from her. He looked back at the times that he didn't reply to her messages in IMs.

From his inbox, he went to his Drafts folder. They were filled with the messages he didn't have the guts to send. Some read "Goodnight.", others "Goodmorning". He looked back at the times, where he wanted to reply but didn't. Why didn't he? Was he afraid so much of rejection? What if she didn't like him back?

he scrolled down to see the very last message in the Drafts folder. It read:

"I love you."

He looked away. He stood up, picked up his phone and walked away. She was nowhere to be found. He went home.

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He ate dinner and got ready for bed. Can i even sleep tonight? He turned on the TV. Infomercial, commercial, infomercial--wait wait--a movie in HBO.

Runaway Bride. This the part where the man proposes...

"...But I also guarantee, that if i dont ask you to be mine, i'll regret it for the rest of my life. Because i know in my heart... that you're the only one for me."

WHOAH. totally had an epiphany. I love her.

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WAS IT TOO LATE? :)) napagod na ako. three hours making this. i'll make a part two. sometime maybe tomorrow. :D quite long. it's not exactly uh, great like the last ones, but trust me, i just want to write this. :)

 

Pour Être Belle's "Ready or Not" of A1 9.10.09 [along with some random pics]

nandy. :) hahaha. no comment! :)) la masabe. :D :]

Science Mathematics Engineering Camp. 2009

panget resolution. phone pics lang. :)) baka mawala ko raw ang cam. XD
but i guess magsusuffice na.

LOVE YOU GUYS. :D

Falling More In Love with the Distance Put Between Us. [SME09]

VEGAS by ALL TIME LOW

Tonight we lie awake
Remember how the coffee made us shake
On those long drives?
One more long night
Another seven days
Heartbeat racing
The interstate, my home tonight
For one more long night
I'm sure as hell the happiest I've ever been

We can't hide, we let go
We've got more than we know
My friends are a different breed
My friends are...

There's a ghost in this room
I think I'll name it after all of you
And watch it hang over my bed like decorations
Celebrate it
Memories that came and went
And a lot of all that time we spent
Listening to everything our parents told us not to take in

Now make a change
I'm counting down
The mile marks to every town
And falling more in love
With the distance put between us

We can't hide, we let go
We've got more than we know
My friends are a different breed
My friends are everything
Make this last, take it slow
We've got it all figured out for now
So let us live our lives without a doubt

Tonight we lie awake
Remember how the coffee made us shake
On those long drives?
One more long night
Another seven days
Heartbeat racing
The interstate, my home tonight
For one more long night

From coast to coast
I'll make the most
Of every second I've been giving with this crowd
Without a doubt
You're all I dream about
At night we lie awake
We ? shake ?
To the nights we felt alive
The nights we felt alive

I would've married you in Vegas
Had you given me the chance to say "I do"
Couldn't make it anymore obvious
Could you be anymore obvious?

I would've married you in Vegas
Had you given me the chance to say "I do"
Couldn't make it anymore obvious, could you?
Be anymore obvious, could you?

 

Theme song ko para sa SME Camp. MY FRIENDS ARE A DIFFERENT BREED. hahaha. parang bagay kasi ung song sa SME :)) :D Love you guys.

 

I'm here to blog my heart out. :D okay. it's been roughly 24 hours since our arrival in manila yesterday. i was so tired and i needed to straighten my thoughts to create a good blog.

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TITLE. Falling More In Love with the Distance Put Between Us. [SME09]

actually lyrics yan dun sa song. i totally thought it to be so suitable. :D

Where to start? well. siguro sa mga kasama ko munang classmates. sila: Sarah, Joyce, Yvon, Ruben, Bruxelle, Anjilo and Johnny. alam nio hindi ko masyadong close kayong lahat. but i felt that we were like a family. hahaha! anyway, hindi muna kayo ang center ng blog na ito, dahil magkikita pa tayo. :))

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THE CAMP ROCKED.

Part01.I was assigned to be in the Chemgroup and i so totally do not regret being assigned there. it was a lot of fun university hopping and conducting experiments. The ChemCamp was divided further into 4 groups because we were too many to be visiting the same campuses at the same time. :D mga kagrupo kong kwela: Angela Lagutan*, Arnold Gamet*, Charl Legista, Cesar Mansal, Liane Penera, Clarizza Santos and Jeffrey Jacinto [special mention :)) XD].

nakapunta lang naman kami sa: University of the Philipines, Diliman; University of the Philippines, Los Baños; De La Salle University, Ateneo De Manila University and University of Santo Tomas. kami lang ang camp na gumawa nian. :)) The experiments were a bit tense to do [ i'm a pessimist, remember? i like think that something'll explode and i'd die from that. :))] but really stirred my curiosity and interest. Right now i'm considering Biochem as my course. :D so much for that. I need not discuss the procedures and scientific concepts we dealt with cause that would totally ruin the entry. :)) XD

Part02. Bataan Beybe! Metro Subic Highlands kami. Grabe. HIGH nga talaga. Halos lumabas ang tiyan ko sa pagikot-ikot ng bus sa daan paakyat ng bundok. :D Bataan was so much fun. though we were separated again into field camps --Geo, Bio and Marine, it was fun. we went hiking, swimming, catching. a lot. :)) but what was even better was the variety show. all the subcamps -- chemistry, physics, biology, ICT, Embedded Instrumentation Systems, Mobile Robotics, Energy and Materials Engineering and Mathematics -- each prepared a presentation. :D again, i will not elaborate. :))

thirdplace--- ICT with their ultra funny tekken like show. :))

secondplace--- Biology with their cool dance.

firstplace--- Chemistry [woot!] with our cheer and role play [chemderella :)) ] Go Mother Nico! :)) and Papa Cesar!! :))

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THE PEOPLE.

[senti mode]

Hmmm. Let's start off with our Good FRIENDS from Valenzuela Science. Ang Roommates namin at forever friends. :)) bibisita kami!!! ang mga kwelang mga taong ito ang hindi nagpatulog sa min sa buong camp haha! :)) pero enjoy naman. XD para kaming pamilyang maliit. hahahaha. Mamimiss ko ang boses ni Sarah, ang pagkaemo namin ni Raiza, katahimikan ni Jezra, ang cuteness ni Kare. Ang Bonn ni Yvon, Lawrence na parang Margust, ang emo na si JM at ciempre si Matthew. :)) Wala ako masyado sa puyatan pero i felt the love naman. :D LOVE YOU GUYS. Bibisita kami!!!

CHEMpmates. man. i love these people too. I dunno why but. sa short span of time that we were together. it just seemed so famliar, so comfortable, parang HOME-ish na feel, it's like i've known these people before. If i believed in reincarnation, i could have sworn that i've been with these people before. THE WHOLE TRIP WITH THEM WAS MAGICAL. Woot. I dont usually get attached to people like this but there was something in them was so great. Parang This is my crowd. kind of feeling. 10 days with them was like a minute.

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REALIZATION and CONCLUSION

FUDGE na-emo na ako. okay ganito yun.

Right after natapos ang school year, which i really loved, i realized a lot of things. And YET again, this particular event underscored my thoughts more than ever.

All things have to END.

it's not really a new thought. but accepting it is quite the challenge.

Pero ito ang realization ko. KUNG hindi matatatapos ang certain parts of your life... YES! You'd be happy in that pariticular moment, particular place, particular time. You'd be HAPPY and you'd love that moment.

BUT SEE, if that particular moment or event ended, you'd feel TWICE, no, Nth power as HAPPY. You'd love it many times over. You'd value things more, that second, that single drop of chemical, that smile of his, that laughter of hers, the air we breathed. :) it is all priceless now that we have lost them.

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NGAYON BACK TO REALITY. GOODBYE SWEET SWEET SUMMER. rather SumMEr. :)

hello expectations, irony, sarcasm, despair, sorrow, neglect. :) emo? medyo exaggerated lang para may effect. XD hahaha. oo madrama ang buhay ko. thanks to all for tainting it with such bright colors. :)) <3

 

~abba moreno.

Spirited Away

Rating:	★★★★★
Category:	Movies
Genre:	Animation

Sen to Chihiro no Kamikakushi [Sen and Chihiro's Spiriting Away]
Directed by: Hayao Miyazaki


Before i start this review, acknowledgment to Rene Lopez, he let me borrow the DVD. haha! THANKS.


Here it goes.

"Spirited Away" is a fantastic film depicting life through such colorful methods. It's really great. Here, Chihiro is a ten year-old girl who tries to save her parents. She was just moving to her family's new house but when her parents try to explore an abandoned theme park, she finds herself in bath-house for spirits, gods and demons. Her parents become pigs and she must rescue them. She meets Haku, a spirit, that helps her through her way.

She meets all sorts of spirits and gods. She works for Yubaba and later on encounters different trials she must face in order to save her parents.

It's a little hard to summarize here since it's really weird so i'll just go on with my reaction. It's really awesome. It shows how a young girl must struggle to grow up in order to save the people she loves.

LOVE.

"Amazing, the power of Love." ----Uncle Fire

REALLLLLLYYY. even though Chihiro is young. I find the love story of Chihiro and Haku, White Dragon, really touching. Haku is the spirit of the river in which Chihiro almost died. They met again in the spirit world and she saved him. In the end, Chihiro remembers Haku's real name; and thus saving him. And in the end, they will meet again.


Honestly, this movie was weird and i dont understand the unnecessary things. But how the movie was made, ties all the unnecessary elements into a beautiful quilt of characters and faces. It has a mysterious touch about it that makes me love it. :)


NICE. MUST WATCH. :D

Club Manila East Escapade! [04.06.2009]

Well. finally convinced my parents to have an outing. :)
it gets pretty boring at home. :)) XD

me.mom.abby.ave.
kami kami lang. :D

saka na yung mga captions. inaantok na ako.
nagsama-sama mga vain! X]]

featuring
ang bagong addition sa aking pamilya ng
mga flipflops... ang bunso :)) yung orange kong havaianas. :) welcome XDD

The Package Counter Guy. [Alternative Ending]

The Package Counter Guy

By: Abba Marie Moreno

 

I’m Richard Nerrick, 20 years old, fresh out of college and I have a position in Counter Packaging. Okay, it’s not really a profession but be free to call me the Package Counter Guy. Feels pretty good to hear.

 

I just finished my Computer Science course and I bet my salary that you’re wondering why I’m in a Package counter here in a grocery store. Well, I do need money to spend when I go looking for a job. I’ve been at it for 2 months and I guess that’ll be enough for a few weeks of job hunting or so.

 

Let me tell you about my day at the Package Counter. Well it isn’t really that bad. I get to see people. What they do. What they look like. All sorts of people and sometimes I just stop to think how great God is to create all of us in such wide varieties. Yeah, it’s fun to look at the people but what’s funnier is what they check in. A few days ago, I saw this bald guy check in a lot of wigs. I mean a lot, I was like: “Man, how many nightclubs do you get into?” But of course that was in my head, I couldn’t really say that out loud can I?

 

There are a lot of people today at the supermarket. It’s a Sunday after all- lots of kids and kidlike adults. Mrs. Cobblesworth did her shopping today. She did it every Sunday and she’d greet me every time. She reminds me a lot of my deceased grandmother. How she smiles and how she’s so kind to everybody. But sometimes I think all old people are the same- kind and aged with experience. Also, there was this kid I saw today. Her mother left her for a few minutes to buy something quick and she had asked me to look after the little girl who seemed to be about five years of age. She was holding this red balloon, I was staring at it and she glared at me at the most evil way; thinking I would snag the balloon. My thoughts were: “How old do you think I am, six?” and I glared back. After a few moments, I found both of us giggling. Her mother came, that five-year-old girl waved goodbye. Well, I guess I won’t be seeing her. In this profession of mine, people come and go. That’s how life’s meant to be anyway.

 

Anyway, in the supermarket today, there was this shady guy. He looked like he was in a panic. He was wearing a black coat and a cap. I was thinking that he might be hiding from the police or something but then I always had that weird imagination. He left this box and went inside the supermarket. As little as I do, I gave this guy a smile. Maybe to ease the tension or maybe just he looked like he needed it. He looked at me for a second and said, “I’m so sorry.” Okay… that was super weird. I had this moment to appreciate how weird that was and to post in my mind a small memo that I would never smile at people like that anymore. So far, today was cool. I liked encounters like those of the kid and the weird guy. Things like that are things that would be nice to recall.  

 

And then, I saw her. She was wearing this white nursing uniform. Her name plate read: Darcy, Lisa. Lisa, what a nice name. She was so pretty—flawless skin, pinned up blonde hair and deep green eyes. What a knock-out. She was checking in the things she shopped for earlier and behind this angel of woman was this troll. Okay, it wasn’t really a troll. It was this tall guy who had wild hair and an evil grin. But this troll was holding Lisa’s hand. I don’t mind becoming a troll if I could just hold that hand of hers. Sigh. She was this type of girl that you were so hopeless in that the next time you might see her is the afterlife. She smiled at me and the couple went in the grocery together. I wish I had a girl like that.

 

The hours passed by quickly. I feel tired. Life's been all good ya know but... i'm getting pretty bored. I want action. Pfft. Like i'll get some in this joint.

 

“Ric? Could you lock up early for me?” Manager said to me.

 

“Uhm. Sir, I can’t today, I… I’ve got to meet someone today.” I lied. Well I didn’t feel like locking up today.

 

“Yea? Okay okay. Say, you can get going now.” He said to me.

 

“Thanks. See ya.” I hollered back while getting my things and scurrying to the door.

 

The evening is young and the cold air is finally setting in. It’s such a wonderful night. I should get a drink or so. Screw church. There’s always next Sunday.

 

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The Manager dialed a number on his cellphone. Number 2 on his speed dial.

 

“Hey, Sarah? Could you meet me in the store? I cant pick you up today.” He spoke in a hushed voice. He fixed things and tidied up; waiting for his wife. He pressed keys on his phone, the door opened. A pregnant woman came in—Sarah.

 

 

Another one Mac. I never knew why alcohol tasted so great. *vibration*

 

 

Sarah smiled so sweetly. The manager was feeling her tummy. Something small and warm inside seemed to move. Life. “I gave this thing Life.” That’s what he thought.

 

Beep. Beep. Beep. There was something beeping. It wasn’t a phone or the store clock. Beep. Beep. Beep. Sarah asked me where the sound was coming from, I should check it out. It was coming from the box. Maybe it was an alarm clock, I better turn it off.

BOOM.

 

It was a bomb.

 

 

 

*Hiccup* Finally out of the bar. *ring* There’s a poster  on that wall.

NOOOOTTTOOORIUUUSS GAANNGG

USSEESS IIIMPPRROOVVVISSEDD BOOMBSSS.

Tsk. Hey there’s a picture of the gang leader. He must be a real wuss.

 

DAMN.

 

He’s the guy I saw at the store today. Manager waaasss there tooo tooto loocckk upp. I ran. My legs seemed to take me to the store in light speed. Left. Right. One more turn.

 

The sound of police sirens and ambulances assured me.

Two corpses covered by a black cloth. I came near to see who the other person was. It was Sarah and if my memory is correct, which I hope not to be, she’s pregnant. SHE’S PREGNANT.

 

I LIED. THEY DIED BECAUSE I LIED. I fell to my knees-looked up at the flaming building that’s slowly falling into rubble. Ow. What’s this in my pocket… My phone. A message. Who could be texting me right now.

 

 

From: Manager

 

Hope you have a good night. Hey. Since you’re a nice kid and all. Sarah and I wanted to name our kid after ya. Sound good?

 

 

 

 

This is an alternate ending to the story The Package Counter Guy. Dedicated to Rozelle and Regine Carlos. J happy birthday! Maybe most of you felt sorry for the first ending, but isn’t this sadder? Even though he was able to live? We are all given a choice. A choice to do good or do bad. To do good is a rough way into Paradise but to do the latter is an easy way to Hell.

Handsome Men Can't Be Hurt by Water.

Ouran High School Host Club

Okay, I may be the last anime-loving person to have watched this but i really like it. thumbs up. :D

well they're all charming by the way, and nooo. i will not use this blog entry to flaunt how gorgeous they are. [i'll do that in an album :)) ] well for some reason, nakarelate ang lola mo. [ meaning ako. did i use the vernacular language correct? :)) ]

watching the series was the total opposite of a lackadaisical experience. i find myself in the shoes of the characters and went into a reflection.

YOU: REFLECTION?!?

ME: yep. :))

okay. i know that this would sound shallow but yes i did feel that. i didnt ask you to read this anyway. basta ibubuhos ko puso ko dito. >.<

**Haruhi Fujioka lost her mother at an early age. she was smart and capable of being responsible of the things she had right now. she understood her parents and started to act independently. sound familiar? well. i didnt lose my mom, but i guess i grew up to be independent. not in the sense of money or anything but in my attitude. sooner or later, i got tired of being disappointed. i always wanted their attention. and i end up resented... rejected. tapos yun. NAGARAL ako. [at nagaaral pa rin ;) ] nang mabuti. somehow lahat ng pagkukulang nila sa kin ay binuhos ko sa report card ko. FUNNY. i was about to give up. i wanted to be cut loose. i dont want to be "good" anymore. tipong SUKANG SUKA na ko sa lahat ng nangyayari sa buhay ko. di naman ako masaya.

[to be honest, i think God wanted me to watch this. nakakatawa siguro sa'yo pero sa kin hindi.]

**Kyouya Ootori - so turn na niya ngayon. OO. kyouya is the third son of this super rich guy with lots of companies. having his brothers achieve a lot, he is expected to do the same but never surpass them. Frustrating, no? okay. it does not sound familiar. :)) EXPECTATION. you know my parents never expected me to achieve academically. actually they never expected much of me at all. all they want is for me to become a good...young...lady...with....initiative...common sense...manners.... and the list goes on and on. tipong yung mga gusto nila sayo inoonti-onti nila para hindi sila masisi. and i have lived with the fact that they were never satisfied with me. I know this sounds harsh but yea, maybe they didnt do it intentionally, but i grew up with that thought in mind. mali ang mga kaibigan mo, palpak, WALANG KWENTA... oh... sakkit no? sa estadong iyan, mataas na nga grades mo, never mo pa silang minura or talkedback, nauutusan ka na rin palabas ng bahay, never ka pang naglayas at nagttrabaho ka na rin sa loob ng bahay. grabe you guys are lucky.

**HIkaru and Kaoru Hitachiin- wala akong twin ah. :)) XD pero the story of these two is that they've always kept their world from our world. ayun. AKO. i can pretty tell you: NO ONE KNOWS ME. well a selected few may know me a lot, but they've never really known me fully. i've always kept some part of me away. i have secrets...dark dark secrets ;)  well the main issue is that i can never trust anyone fully. :| it is forgiveable, the world is a bad bad place ;P people, i am a pessimist. i heed all the bad things that could happen when one allows other people to sink in to what they are. well maybe i am missing a lot but that's just the way i am. and i guess the only person that could do that to me would be someone like tamaki or haruhi. :D but i reckon there wont be a person like that for now. dont mistake me friends, i trust you of course, it's just that no one would be ready yet to see me. :))

Ouran High School Host Club. the characters' morale are stupendous and people like that may or may not exist at all. but this series underscores one thing:

if you have people, friends--family, by your side, everything is worthwhile.

to carry your burden with you,

to offer faces you intend to paint with smiles,

to paint YOUR smile.

I guess God wanted me to learn this, as i was about to give up all things good and sensible. I wasnt alone and i need not be anyone else. Shallow ko no? di ko alam yun mga bagay na ganon. it's pretty easy to say those things. and it's damn hard for me to live 'em. :D

You just have to be yourself and not live up on what others expect of you. that's it.

 

isa tong napakahabang blog entry, at IKAW. na nakabasa nito. salamat. by reading this, you have somehow alleviated the burden. ;) astig ka, ang layo ng binasa mo. :D

 

so sa mga friends ko. SALAMAT :D very much.

i'm sorry i couldnt show you all of me, but i guess that would be just for tamaki-sama.

 

MY PRINCE. :))

haruhi did nothing but to study, but she met this wonderful guy. i remain faithful to my promise! :D

 

**wwooott feeling ko. :) XD he's a melodramatic idiot. :) sana may ganon rin ako. XD

LSCers enroll. :))

super walang magawa. XD

LSC ortigas. :D
march 7 '09

Anjilo's bday :))

Start:	Mar 1, '09
Location:	sa mundong ibabaw! :D

happy 14th!!! :D

Live Museum :]

Start:	Feb 19, '09
Location:	CMSHS

AP live museum. archimedes on the moon. XD