Kahit papaano, ang layo na rin pala.

Gumising ako ngayong umaga. Medyo kakaiba yung pakiramdam. Yung tipong isa sa mga umaga na alam kong may maiisip akong ikatutuwa ko kapag nagtagal pa akong magmuni-muni sa kama. Masarap ang gising ko. (kahit ala-una ako natulog at nakarinig ako ng alitan ng aking mga magulang kanina)

Nag-isip ako. Nagdasal ako. 

Salamat sa umaga na ito. Nagising ulit ako. Gabayan Niyo po sana ako sa araw na ito at ang lahat ng mga kaibigan ko. Sana walang masamang mangyari sa kanila at isinasainyo ko na po ang kapalaran namin. God bless us all. 

Nakahiga't nag-iisip. Napalingon ako sa lahat ng pinagdaanan ko (nanaginip na naman ako tungkol sa mga tao sa aking kahapon).

Napaisip ako: Ang layo na pala nang narating ko. 

Hindi naman sa nagyayabang ako. Kumpara sa ibang tao, tiyak na mas malayo ang narating nila. Pero para sa akin at sa mga sitwasyon ko, kahit papaano, malayo-layo na 'tong narating ko sa buhay. 

Iskolar na nga pala ako ngayon sa Ateneo (isa sa mga pinakatanyag na unibersidad sa bansa). Kahit papaano, maganda pa rin naman ang mga marka ko. Naging valedictorian pala ako nung High school (sa CMSHS, na sinasabing maraming matatalinong bata ng Mandaluyong ang nag-aaral doon). May isang kahon din ako ng mga medalya at certificate mula noong High school. Sumali nga pala ako ng mga kumpetisyon noon. Science, English, ang karamihan, (di ako mahilig sa math).

Kahit papaano, maipagmamalaki ko na ang mga 'yan. Bunga 'yan ng sariling sikap ko at bukal-sa-loob na pagtulong ng mga tao sa paligid ko. 

Alam niyo ba, na ni isang beses, hindi pumunta ang mga magulang ko sa mga kumpetisyong sinalihan ko? (kung nananalo man, laging guro ang nagsasabit ng medalya) Hindi na rin nila ako pinakialaman sa pag-aaral ko pagdating ng ikaapat na baitang ng elementarya. Tagatingin na lang sila ng mga marka (at pati ang report card ko, ako na rin ang kumuha). Sa totoo lang, noong elementarya, hindi sumagi sa isipan ko na "matalino" pala ako. Hindi ko pinangarap na maging valedictorian o maging iskolar. Hindi masyadong maganda ang suporta ng mga magulang ko (kung sa pag-aaral). 

Dumating din ang punto noong nasa ikalimang baitang ako na "nakalimutan" akong sunduin. Private school kasi, bawal lumabas nang basta-basta ang mga bata. Naghintay ako hanggang alas-siete ng gabi sa may gate ng paaralan namin, kasama ang security guard, umiiyak, nagdadasal na sunduin na ako. Umalis na kasi yung ibang mga bata, ako na lang ata hindi nasusundo. Masakit. Dumating ang tatay ko, nagsorry siya, sabi niya dumaan muna raw siya sa bahay tapos naalala niya na hindi niya pa ko nasusundo. (Hanep, di ba?) Pagkatapos ng insidente na iyon, natuto akong magcommute mag-isa. Ayoko ang pakiramdam na naghihintay na lang ako ng tulong at wala na kong kayang gawin. Inasikaso ko yung commuter's pass ko, para palabasin ako ng guard. Pagdating ng grade 6, tuwing may meeting ako sa Student Council na ginagabi, ako na mag-isa ang umuuwi. Para sa isang bata sa isang private school para sa mga babae, malaking bagay na marunong kang magcommute mag-isa (namangha ang mga kaklase ko noong nalaman nila, mayayaman kasi karaniwan ang mga estudyante doon). Hindi naman umalma ang mga magulang ko, alam siguro nila na kaya ko ang sarili ko. 

(pero hanggang ngayon, si Abby na grade six na, hindi pa rin nila pinapayagan. ano kayang ibig sabihin nun?)

Bumalik tayo, hindi masyadong maganda ang suporta ng magulang ko sa paaralan, basta pumasa, ayos lang. Walang pressure, naiintindihan ko, pero kahit paano sana nakita nila na kaya ko (kung hindi siguro ako pumasok sa MandSci, na academic-oriented, hindi ko siguro mararating to). Pagtungtong ng high school, dalawang libro lang ang binili nila para sa akin (nakakainggit sa mga kaklase ko, na kahit second-hand na libro sa biology, zoology, chemistry at physics talagang ibinibigay ng mga magulang nila, kumikirot sa puso pero ayos lang, nag-aral na lang ako sa internet, at sa mga hiram na libro galing sa mga guro ko. Naging Best in Biology, Botany, Chemistry, Earth Science, English naman ako.). Kahit hanggang ngayon naman, ako pa rin bumibili ng mga libro ko sa kolehiyo (maraming magagandang loob na nagbibigay ng scholarship). Halos wala na silang binabayaran para sa pag-aaral ko. 

Hindi ko rin naman siguro masisisi ang magulang ko. Mula naman sa umpisa, hindi masyadong academic-oriented ang mga Moreno at Suarez. Madalang lang na may makatapos ng kolehiyo. Hindi naman kami galing sa mayayaman na pamilya. Kaya naman, kahit makatungtong o matapos mo ang kolehiyo, malaking bagay na. Kaya siguro hindi masyadong napapansin ang pagsuporta sa pag-aaral kasi sa pagpapaaral pa lang mismo, nahihirapan na kami. Pinaghirapan ng mga magulang ko na pag-aralin kami sa mga pribadong paaralan. Mahal ang tuition fee sa St. Paul Pasig at sa Lourdes School of Mandaluyong (sabay kami ng kuya ko). Noong nag-aral na rin si Abby, naisip ko na hindi kakayanin na mag-aral kaming tatlo sa mga pribadong paaralan. Nagpublic-science high school ako. At least doon, walang bayad. (Nanibago ako, sobrang dumi, luma ng gamit, kulang ng staff. Doon ako natuto magfloorwax, magwalis, maglinis ng electric fan. Nakaka-down-to-earth ang experience. Doon ko nalaman na ang telepono, niloloadan, na may mga pamilya talagang nagbubugbugan, na may nakatira talaga sa ganoong bahay. Mas naging tao ako sa MandSci.)

Kung iisipin, malayo na rin ang narating ng nanay ko. Sa siyam na magkakapatid, siya lang ang nakatapos ng kolehiyo. Sabi ng lolo ko sa kanya, hindi na siya kayang pag-aralin. Hindi nawalan ng pag-asa ang nanay ko. Nagworking-student siya sa Maynila (kahit taga-Pampanga talaga sila). Nagtrabaho siya sa National Bookstore kapag may araw pa, babalik siya para mag-aral sa PUP nang gabi. Iginapang niya yung diploma niya. Hindi gaanong mataas ang mga marka niya noon (mahirap mag-aral nang pagod) pero at least, nakapagtapos siya. At nasaan na nga ba siya ngayon? Isang mataas na officer sa HSBC (isang international na bangko) at ka-level niya na ang mga Trust Officer sa bansa (nakapasa siya sa interview ng Standard Charters). 

Hindi nakapagtapos ng kolehiyo ang tatay ko. Sa katunayan, hindi ko talaga alam kung anong nangyari sa kanya kasi alam ng karamihan na matalino siya. Shift ata nang shift ang tatay ko. Alam kong Business Administration siya, na naging Accounting, na naging ECE. Dapat ata ggraduate na siya, kaso pinabugbog ata ng barkada niya yung isang ROTC officer na pinahirapan sila. (O diba? May pinagmanahan 'tong kaangasan ko) Ayun, hindi niya hinintay. Nagtrabaho na lang siya kaagad. 

Hmmm. So ayun. 

Siguro para sa isang batang hindi masyadong nasubaybayan sa paaralan, na nanggaling sa pamilyang hirap sa pagpapaaral, malayo na nga ang narating ko. 

Napapaisip ako: paano kung hindi ako nakapag-entrance-test ng MandSci? Paano kung sinubaybayan nga nang mabuti yung pag-aaral ko? Paano kung nagloko na lang ako? Paano kung nagdrugs/nanigarilyo/nag-inom/nanglalaki na lang ako (kapag nasa isang pampublikong paaralan ka, hindi malayong mangyari sa iyo ang ilan dyan)? 

It's wonderful to think how our lives are held together by such intricate details--the small choices we make, the people around us, the waking-ups and all the other elements of our day-to-day lives. There are so many ifs and maybes to be thought about. 

Aaminin ko sa inyo, hindi naging madali para marating ko 'to. Apat ang nunal ko sa balikat (tag dalawa sa bawat balikat), sabi nila, ibigsabihin daw noon, lahat daw ng pasanin sa mundo bubuhatin ko. Marami akong pinagdaanan, mga pre. Pero para sa mga umaga na ganito, ang sarap isipin na buhay ako ngayon at napagdaanan ko sila. 

Ang galing ni Lord! (Wooooooooooooooooooo! Idol! Maraming salamat! Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko kung wala po Kayo. Sa mga oras na pagod na ako at gusto ko na talagang mamatay, sa Inyo lang po ako kumuha ng lakas para gumising ulit. Salamat na hindi ako naging addict sa kanto o kaya tambay o kaya salamat na nakatungtong ako sa kolehiyo.)

Hindi sa malayo na ang narating ko, pero malayo na kung saan Niyo po ako dinala. Salamat. Sana po dalhin Niyo lang ako, tingnan po natin kung hanggang saan ko po kayang sumunod sa Inyo. Ayoko pong bumitaw. 

Maraming salamat. Ang sarap ng gising ko sa umaga na ito. :)

Gratitude

September 10, 2011

 

*Inhale. Exhale.* Here it goes.

 

Normally, when something goes wrong for a friend, or for myself, I would be the one who’d go:

“Life’s a bitch. Deal with it.”

“Ganyan ang buhay eh, nanggagago.“

“Sino bang nagsabi madali ang buhay?“

 

Dyan, dyan ako magaling—ang galing ko sisihin ang mundo sa lahat ng kasamaan na nakikita ko.

Oo, masama ang mundo.

It will hurt you.

And screw with your head so much,

that sometimes you wish you weren’t born.

 

but… the world isn’t all that bad.

The world is filled with people that will and can love you.

Life can be beautiful.

When you wake up in the morning and see the sun shining, isn’t it only right that you should say: “It’s good to be alive, at least.”

 

I guess, what I’m trying to say is that: I’ve been looking at it all the wrong way. I mean, sure, Life can be a bitch, but isn’t it so much more?

(I mean, well, I can be a bitch, but I’m so much more than that, right? Maybe it applies =)) )

 

Buong buhay ko, hindi ako nakaramdam ng ganitong sense of gratitude. I guess, it’s time to look at life in a different way. Kasi dati, kapag may masamang nangyari, tinitiis ko na lang. Dapat kasi, hanapin ang mabuti sa masama—that’s the way to go. That way, it’s not torture nor martyrdom: it’s an unending well of gratitude and contentment. Life should be something like that.

 

I want to be able to say:

YES, I AM THANKFUL FOR ALL THE GOOD THINGS AND THE BAD THINGS LIFE THROWS MY WAY.

YES, THAT IS MY PAIN AND I AM THANKFUL. YES, THAT IS MY BLISS AND I AM THANKFUL.

YES, I AM AT RAGE, AND I AM THANKFUL. YES, I AM IN LOVE, AND I AM THANKFUL.

YES, THIS IS ME, AND I AM THANKFUL.

 

Coming from my recent realizations, I want to see the beauty of the world—and, perhaps, only I have the power to do that. I want to learn to love myself, and to fall in love also. I want to change from my ways and become a better person—to wake up to new mornings and new beginnings.

 

This is a start of a new life. 

Thoughts Before Nightfall. [A Short Story ]

Thoughts Before Nightfall by Abba Marie Moreno

Anna trudged her way to the top of the hill where a single tree stood. The sun was setting and the slopes were bathed in the sun’s glorious rays. She stood there under the shade of the wise tree—overlooking the whole Village of Arte Neo. The amihan played with her long black hair as it blew softly. Slowly, she closed her eyes and welcomed the cool wind’s kisses. As it passed, she opened her eyes and stared at the village.

She gave a sigh.

 

In a few days, I will be back there. Oh, how time passes, she thought.

 

She sat down among the blades of grass. She sighed once more. Rest was ephemeral. In a few more days, the village would be once again open to Wanderers—men and women like her, in search of The Purpose.

 

The Purpose, she thought to herself. I wonder why most Wanderers go to the Enlightened Villages in search of it. Purpose, a place where you belong? Purpose, something you ought to do? Purpose, an intricate plan of a good future. Future, who can say how much is left? Agggh. I think too much.

 

The orange ring of hydrogen and helium was gradually engulfed by the distant hills and valleys. She examined how the golden rays slowly moved away from her.

 

Time is fleeting. She thought.

 

Not too long ago, she was baffled by the thoughts of surviving the first Stage of Wandering. She had studied long and hard under Kemi’s Tree and had been terribly confused by the House of Freakalkyuloose. She had gone through a lot of mentors and wizards and what not. On particular days, hope did not seem to dawn her [Ironically, she was still up at dawn]. And yet, with fervent prayers, she survived Stage I of her First Year of Wandering.

 

She gave another sigh. Was it of relief? Or of weariness? Four and a half years more ‘til she receives The Purpose of an Alchemist. It’s a very long way to go.

 

After about four more years, I’d finally go through the Ritual of Enlightenment.

And finally, receive The Purpose—a diploma.

 

In Thrae, we’re all looking for The Purpose, or at least anything close to one. Perhaps for prestige? For money? For luxuries? Or for mere survival? And it’s sort of sad, I guess, that this is what we measure our lives with.

 

Maybe, deep inside, we’re looking for a purpose. [I guess that’s what we should measure our lives with.]

And we just get confused by our wants and needs and get lost. And confuse The Purpose for an actual one.

 

I’ve known many Wanderers, and sometimes, they forget what they’re really doing this for.

I’ve always known my purpose. I know why I’m here.

It’s the world, actually, who’s in search of why I’m here.

 

She smiled and took something from her pocket—pictures. They were slightly illuminated by the escaping sun but she could still see the figures in the pictures [and perhaps even without light, she could]. Nightfall was  here and it’s about time to make her way back to the camp. She needed her rest, for in a few more days, she would be back in the Village of Arte Neo.

 

I do think too much. She sighed. 

UPCAT :)

Start:	Aug 2, '09 12:30p
End:	Aug 2, '09 6:30p
Location:	UP Diliman, NCPAG Building

upcat ko. :| :)

Cold Hard Harsh, Reality.

Cold Hard Harsh Reality. well at least MY reality.

fudge. i was so furious this afternoon. well my classmates knew why. i shouldnt be mentioning names or whatever but i have my right to express this burden.

altruism --- a defense mechanism in which, when feeling strong emotion or stress, the person would obsessively help other people. :|

ako ba yun? am i like that? i like helping people.,i like stress <?> somehow. i love drama. i'm efficient and i dont ask questions. i dont say no for an answer--- to authorities of course.

 

alam ko. this is not a good attitude. you can blame my parents for that. i grew up. not to ask questions. just do what you're told. RESPECT in the highest meaning of the word. i didnt mind getting hurt. getting insulted. getting expected of. crying without anyone knowing [i cry, because i did not want to feel the destructive emotion of anger. but i guess my brother knew. but he never bothered to help me. i never bothered to help him. our parents controlled what needed be.]

 

i'm feeling little droplets of liquid in my eyes right now. [thanks louise :) ] i feel abused somehow. and "something" isnt right. i'm feeling deterioration. dont take it seriously, that's what you said, but i dont know. I CANT NOT TAKE IT SERIOUSLY. para kong tanga to ponder about this. and somehow maybe i'll laugh about this in the future. but this is present pain. this is happening now. this is what i want to forget. this is why i write.

 

hindi lang tong incident na to ang dahilan. marami pa. i guess yun lang ang sindi ng dynamite ng lahat.[9:30pm]

[9:53pm]oh di ba. busy ako. :)) ayun. medyo okay na. [thanks louise ulit and paula D] somehow alam niya kung papano ako dapat i-handle. SIGH.

nawala na ang momentum ng galit at emosyon ko.

 

NAALALA KO BIGLA.

 

the thing that keeps me going.

 

[after being hurt by the people i love the most.]

 

is.... are..

 

MY FRIENDS. :]

 

 

[tears ulit--- 9:56pm]

[10pm] these people make everything feel better. :) [tumawag pa si rona] :D

 

siguro. i may be passive most of the time. busy. doesnt give a damn about anyone or anything as long as i finish what i'm working on. minsan nalilimutan kong mangamusta. or bumati ng birthday. or busy ako.

pero. i can tell you here. that when the time comes that you need me. and tell me what you need. i will be there for you. i know it's hard.that i should be the one approached. i'm selfish. i'm busy. i dont have time for you.

 

but the real friends i have. know that i'm just a girl. waiting to be bailed out of a well i fell in.

 

i treasure them the  most :) if you dont feel the same way. i dont care. masaya ako kapag kasama ko kayo. if you leave me, fine. i can live with the fact that you people were the reason that i kept going on. but can you? 

 

i love you guys. :) thanks so much. nasira ang essence ng angry blog. naging emo. :)) at nostalgic.  

Handsome Men Can't Be Hurt by Water.

Ouran High School Host Club

Okay, I may be the last anime-loving person to have watched this but i really like it. thumbs up. :D

well they're all charming by the way, and nooo. i will not use this blog entry to flaunt how gorgeous they are. [i'll do that in an album :)) ] well for some reason, nakarelate ang lola mo. [ meaning ako. did i use the vernacular language correct? :)) ]

watching the series was the total opposite of a lackadaisical experience. i find myself in the shoes of the characters and went into a reflection.

YOU: REFLECTION?!?

ME: yep. :))

okay. i know that this would sound shallow but yes i did feel that. i didnt ask you to read this anyway. basta ibubuhos ko puso ko dito. >.<

**Haruhi Fujioka lost her mother at an early age. she was smart and capable of being responsible of the things she had right now. she understood her parents and started to act independently. sound familiar? well. i didnt lose my mom, but i guess i grew up to be independent. not in the sense of money or anything but in my attitude. sooner or later, i got tired of being disappointed. i always wanted their attention. and i end up resented... rejected. tapos yun. NAGARAL ako. [at nagaaral pa rin ;) ] nang mabuti. somehow lahat ng pagkukulang nila sa kin ay binuhos ko sa report card ko. FUNNY. i was about to give up. i wanted to be cut loose. i dont want to be "good" anymore. tipong SUKANG SUKA na ko sa lahat ng nangyayari sa buhay ko. di naman ako masaya.

[to be honest, i think God wanted me to watch this. nakakatawa siguro sa'yo pero sa kin hindi.]

**Kyouya Ootori - so turn na niya ngayon. OO. kyouya is the third son of this super rich guy with lots of companies. having his brothers achieve a lot, he is expected to do the same but never surpass them. Frustrating, no? okay. it does not sound familiar. :)) EXPECTATION. you know my parents never expected me to achieve academically. actually they never expected much of me at all. all they want is for me to become a good...young...lady...with....initiative...common sense...manners.... and the list goes on and on. tipong yung mga gusto nila sayo inoonti-onti nila para hindi sila masisi. and i have lived with the fact that they were never satisfied with me. I know this sounds harsh but yea, maybe they didnt do it intentionally, but i grew up with that thought in mind. mali ang mga kaibigan mo, palpak, WALANG KWENTA... oh... sakkit no? sa estadong iyan, mataas na nga grades mo, never mo pa silang minura or talkedback, nauutusan ka na rin palabas ng bahay, never ka pang naglayas at nagttrabaho ka na rin sa loob ng bahay. grabe you guys are lucky.

**HIkaru and Kaoru Hitachiin- wala akong twin ah. :)) XD pero the story of these two is that they've always kept their world from our world. ayun. AKO. i can pretty tell you: NO ONE KNOWS ME. well a selected few may know me a lot, but they've never really known me fully. i've always kept some part of me away. i have secrets...dark dark secrets ;)  well the main issue is that i can never trust anyone fully. :| it is forgiveable, the world is a bad bad place ;P people, i am a pessimist. i heed all the bad things that could happen when one allows other people to sink in to what they are. well maybe i am missing a lot but that's just the way i am. and i guess the only person that could do that to me would be someone like tamaki or haruhi. :D but i reckon there wont be a person like that for now. dont mistake me friends, i trust you of course, it's just that no one would be ready yet to see me. :))

Ouran High School Host Club. the characters' morale are stupendous and people like that may or may not exist at all. but this series underscores one thing:

if you have people, friends--family, by your side, everything is worthwhile.

to carry your burden with you,

to offer faces you intend to paint with smiles,

to paint YOUR smile.

I guess God wanted me to learn this, as i was about to give up all things good and sensible. I wasnt alone and i need not be anyone else. Shallow ko no? di ko alam yun mga bagay na ganon. it's pretty easy to say those things. and it's damn hard for me to live 'em. :D

You just have to be yourself and not live up on what others expect of you. that's it.

 

isa tong napakahabang blog entry, at IKAW. na nakabasa nito. salamat. by reading this, you have somehow alleviated the burden. ;) astig ka, ang layo ng binasa mo. :D

 

so sa mga friends ko. SALAMAT :D very much.

i'm sorry i couldnt show you all of me, but i guess that would be just for tamaki-sama.

 

MY PRINCE. :))

haruhi did nothing but to study, but she met this wonderful guy. i remain faithful to my promise! :D

 

**wwooott feeling ko. :) XD he's a melodramatic idiot. :) sana may ganon rin ako. XD

My Brother's Graduation

Start:	Mar 28, '09 10:00a
Location:	Aquinas School

from HS to College na siya. matanda na siya. :)) XD

DANCE! Jive!

:)) group namin.

on THAT matter. :)

sssssssssiiiiiiiiiiiggggggghhhhhhhh.

life, as i know it, is topsy turvy. XD it's pretty hard liking someone who doesnt like you but... you seem to want it that way. at least that's what i feel. ;)

well then, maybe because he makes me feel so safe and the way he comforts me is why i like him so much. :)) the way he's silent. the way he's like always there. i dont find him THAT good-looking but... it's this charm of his. X)

and no, i will not rant about this guy like the previous post. :))

i'm gonna rant about something else. XD if i like him and he doesnt like me, what should i do? tell him? or give up? it's pretty hard you know, especially if you're a girl. GIRLS have to wait. GIRLS have to hope that, that guy would like her. Girls cant just go up to a guy and tell him her feelings. why? the society dictates this as so, and it does seem a little desperate. XD

anyway. i dont know which path i chose, i'll just hope God would nmake the best decision in writing my Love Story. X)

ideal prince :]

oh meeenn. well it was the regional science fair today -- NCR. well i'm not here to talk about science and stuff.. well i lost... now getting to the topic...

OMGosh I just met my ideal guy ever! X] hahahha nagcocontest, natulala sa katabi? XD

hahaha anyway. i wasnt really focused on him. well he won... first place! grrr. hahaha didnt want to win anyway. ;] pagod na ko.

okaay. characteristics:

1. matangkad [ssooobra]
2. maputi xa. [normal lang na maputi]
3. ang cool nia [cool as in relaxed na relaxed xa kahit regionals nun]
4. he speaks english fantastically
5. did i forget to mention he looks so dashing XD and so cute.
6. he's smart pa.
7. angas pa ng itsura.. [mahilig sa badboy? XD]

well i wouldnt normally just blog about guys everywhere but then... i was about to congratulate him.. so i was like staring at him., waiting for the moment i could... but when i was staring at him.. he like .. stared back. :]] awww. tapos 3 times un! hahahha. babaw ba? XD hahahaha. well i know.. but there was something in his eyes that says i want to meet you. and somehow ung makapal kong mukha nahiya nang magcongratulate sa kanya. as in... parang 3 times na kaming naging magkatabi tapos di ko talaga siya makausap. awww. hope i'll meet him again. or sana someone like him. X) 

ROCK! :]] an entry about yesterday.

:]] God is soo good.

^^ i really like how yesterday ended. :]] really cool. it ROCKS! XD and you're wondering right now, what's with that word. well that was our team word. we kept on repeating over and over. XD

first it was like this. We were sooo late compared to our set departure time from school cause ms. frias was still at the division office singing. and we were like...

"We're late. we're disqualified." and somethings like that. well i most of the negative thinking came from me. X] as kuya amiel said about me: "You were born a pessmist..." XD

well my pessimism and my thoughts dont usually happen and they didnt. mam frias arrived just in the nick of time. and we arrived there before anything could start! God is Great!

the elimination and semifinals just proceeded... even though it was carried out it an orderly fashion it managed to kill 3 hours. spelling takes soo long to finish.well anyway. we were crossing our fingers and praying all the way and we managed to get into the finals with Lourdes. God's grace again.

****okay. why do i keep on saying things about God's grace. well i've learned that if you offer things to God and let him manage everything, he'll do the best for you. before in contests i used to pray: "Lord, please let us win..." and stuff like that but for the past contest and the Science Olympiad... i prayed.."this is for the exaltation of your name..." and boom! :] he rewards those loyal to him. words are incomparable to how i feel about this.

okay. the finals were really tense. sobrang close fight. nagtie kami for like 2 times. they got ahead two times too. :] my three words were: provocateur, pseudonym and connoisseur. i spelled provocateur wrong. :\ but it's fine! kuya amiel managed to spell all of his right. and our winning word was... Euthanasia. --yeah. mercy killing. XD

well we came home with high spirits, some stuff and a trophy. but what i valued the most is the friendship we created between ourselves. how i made kuya amiel and regeanne laugh soo hard. and how andrew made me laugh so hard. :]] we even used one pen for all the written rounds. ;] quite cool. :D

we returned to school to get our stuff. it was dark as heck. :0 and scary too. i went home. and the day ended with me scared... 0_0 hotel626 is some game. :]] hahaha.

lalalalalife. you win some. you lose some. :]

2nd Y-Jam Inter-School Spelling Bee. :]]

11/7/08

lalala! the 2 days of migraine finally paid off. okaay. with our winning word: euthanasia - we successfully defended our title against Lourdes School of Mandaluyong. 2nd place was Lourdes School of Mandaluyong and following for third place is Good Sheperd Christian School. :]]

members: Amiel Rayo, Moi, Andrew Jovellana and Reagenne -- uh.. i forgot how to spell her name. XD

panget ng quality. phone lang kc. walang digicam! sayang.

Mandaluyong in the 70's

And yeah i said i'd be sleeping by now, but i just can resist writing this down after listening to my dad reminisce. :D

okaayy. i few facts before anything else -- i live in gueventville II, brgy. Mauway, Mand. city.

TRIVIA: According to my dad... Mauway was the most feared barangay in Mandaluyong because.. maraming siga dito! XDD hahahha. another one, GueventII used to be a volkswagen factory. :] hahahaha..

okay. we were like eating at home, when i asked my dad if ghosts were real, and suddenly he got to this nostalgic mood and he was going on and on about his old days.... how he used to beat up the other kids XD hahaha. tagalugin ko na nga para mas maintindihan...

grabe pala tatay ko dati... dati daw, may bata, crackling his knuckles in front of him, sabi ng tatay ko., "Ano problema mo?"... umalis ung isang bata, nagdala ng kasama... Pagtingin daw sa tatay koo... "Si jojo pala yan oh.." alis sila eh., XD hahahhaha.

mandaluyong before rather where we are right now a few decades before, it was mad. that's what he said. guys fighting each other, my dad even saw a dead guy stuffed up somewhere where they threw garbage.. [roughly infront of the gate of guevent]. Ang barangay mauway ay isang lugar, kapag nagpakita ka ng konting yabang, bugbog ka. -that's what my dad said. there were fights everywhere, dead guys? there were trees too [which i find quite unimaginable right now]. i mean, it was full of action and as my dad was telling stories, i was feeling the adrenaline myself. natawa ako eh, sumuntok daw ng pulis tatay ko eh. XDD hahahha. i wish i was like that. XD

basketball before was a physical sport. you could smack your opponent and not get thrown off the game. XD hahahhaha. what's funny is that they beat up some guys during a game and they stayed in front of the gate and those guys were too scared to try to leave. hahahha.

i liked how he described those fights. isang time daw, they entered another territory tapos naiwan un kasama nila, tapos tinali daw sa puno ng mangga. XD hahaaha. i mean whoah. and then my dad was left in a fight tapos umuwi ung kapatid nia [tito ko] para daw kumuha ng kutsilyo. XD hahahha.

okay. bottomline. i love the adrenaline, those were after the martial law days. it seemed sooo cool. it was like an action movie everyday. i even got a cool quote from my dad, it's what his father told him. "Makipagsuntukan ka, wag ka lang uuwi ng umiiyak." it's pretty cool 'cause i never met my grandfather. i like the thought too. :]

the stories my father shared me tonight. only instilled to me one thing: Weak people won't survive in a world like this.

 

now i know why my mom married dad. :] pareho kami.

Artemis Fowl, The Lost Colony

Rating:	★★★★★
Category:	Books
Genre:	Science Fiction & Fantasy
Author:	Eoin Colfer

Love the series and this recent one really is nice. My dear, dear Master Fowl, struggling with teenage infatuation? Love even? :]] hahaha. no matter how smart he is, or us even, we are still susceptible to infatuation :]]

hahaha. infatuation -- not love. INFATUATION. it's nothing more than liking someone for a minute and dumping them in the next. XD

Well, i like the references to Quantum physics. i am interested in that. :]
am looking forward to the next book... Artemis Fowl: Time Paradox

this is a blog entry, uhh.. a glad one :]

well yeah. it was the party that made me glad. :]] i like dressing up. umuwi nga lang ako ng maaga. :D

nakoo. for the first time, in a long time, naramdaman ko ang highschool. pagpasok ko na naman magaaral na naman para sa regionals. :[ ayaw ko na.

anyway. ang saya talaga nung party.. ---may gusto sana akong isayaw kaso... XD hahaha. you na who that is ehhh. :D furthermore. PANIC AT THE DISCO ung songs :X sooo in love with brendon's HOTT voice. XD hahaha. :]

tpos. ang gwapo pa ni... :X pang paganda ng araw. ang sarap pa ng tulog ko ngaun uhmm... 15 and a half hours of sleep from last night and today! XD magpapatapon sana ako ngaun :D

hahaha. BOTTOM LINE IS I'M VERY HAPPY WITH MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. <3

Archies Costume Party! :]]

hahaha. october 29 o8.

Rabbit Doubt [manga]

thanks to OneManga.Com :] and snoopycool, i am so addicted to this manga. :] i just put it here so people can read the introduction :D hahahha.

Archies :] MAPEH paintings :]

waha. october twenty-five two thousand eight. :] ang cuuuute ng lahat ng paintings. :D

October 17 2008 -- I was Scarred for Life

there was supposed to be a lot of rants here but i accidentally clicked the back button so i dont want to waste my time retyping all those words of mine.

<a href=''>CLICK HERE FOR THE EVIDENCE</a>

October 17 2008 -- I was Scarred for Life

there was supposed to be a lot of rants here but i accidentally clicked the back button so i dont want to waste my time retyping all those words of mine.

<a href='http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vTa3HXWSsZ0'>CLICK HERE FOR THE EVIDENCE</a>