pero actually, january 19 na. =)) at 3:37 na ng umaga. :) Gumawa ako ng calculus, nagnotes sa filipino at gumagawa rin ng notes sa chem at TLE. ang lupit =)) XD <galing kay louise b. ang title =)) >
anyway. eto na nga yung blog ko. sabi ko sayo Johnray e. magbblog ako =)) so eto naaa.
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it was today that the UPCAT results came out.
it was one of the most anticipated results of college entrance tests for those who took it. it was a prestigious school of course, it was a big deal if you got in. if you didnt, maybe it was the quota or maybe it isnt for you.
so anyway, it was the last of the big four to release results. UP, Ateneo, La Salle and UST. all their results have been released to happy/sad senior students of high school.
we were at the classroom, it was still morning, then a text came out. cherry mae passed UP, then gel. their parents went to UP, i think. everyone got agitated. people started calling their parents and stuff. after a few hours, Charmille announced a few of our classmates who passed UP. people even got more tense and excited. even the atmosphere was tense, it was raining now and it was very humid. and just before our economics class started: BOOM. the results of the UPCAT were posted on the net. the people in the room found their ways to the results. :)) people were shouting and screaming and congratulating one another.
I was still staring at all of them. :)
My brain thought: Are they really happy? Or havent they realized that this is really all over?
Oh boy.
High school is ending. And i've been blogging about that the whole year. And heaven knows i cant get over it. Maybe that's why i cried.
amidst all of the excitement and sheer bliss my classmates were experiencing--and even though I was informed i passed UP as well--i cried.
I cried because a part of me is denying the fact that this would all be over soon. A part of me cried because I was going to ateneo--a lot of my classmates are going to UP. That same part of me felt cold. I was going to go through college, partly alone.
well i guess i'm exaggerating =)) i'm not gonna be alone. actually i already know a few people going there. :) but the thing is that,
BACK TO ZERO ANG LAHAT.
and i really think i'm weak because i cant accept that.
I've gained friends in high school--great wonderful friends, i've met the best teachers ever, shared unforgettable moments with people here, found love, gained confidence in myself, learned how to trust others and myself...
I'VE GAINED EVERYTHING, TO LOSE IT ALL.
Parang ganun yung sentiments ko. =)) Excited akong magcollege. pero part of me ay natatakot at ayaw mawala to. ganun lang talaga siguro akong tao, masyadong mapaghalaga.
siguro emo lang talaga ako, at naisip ko ang mga ganitong bagay =))
4:02 am na. nagugutom na ko. nagluluto na ng almusal. :)) papasok pa ko at mag-peperiodical exams =)) Wala akong naaral XDDD woohooo!
sige sige. aalis na ko, may one hour pa bago magfive. magnnotes pa ko sa TLE. : )
