The Golden Ticket. [A Dream]

Okay. i had the best dream ever.

i was with friends in my dream. the only person i remember that was part of the group was John Ray. Anyway, we like won this thing-urhm-ticket to see Panic At The Disco because they were in the Philippines.

We, the friends i was with, entered the room where the band members were. it seemed all sooo vivid. Velvet red curtains, rugs and even the door! :D  The band members were sitting there looking bored (one was sleeping i think :)) ). Brendon Urie was the first person i saw. He was sitting down on a couch near the door. He stared at me with wide eyes.

In my dream, we were like: OMG! PANIC! I LOVE YOU GUYS! ROCK ON! [in total awe of the coolness of our luck] but they seemed indifferent about it.

 

SUDDENLY THE ATMOSPHERE CHANGED.

 

The white light from the flourescent lightings became red <i have no idea how and why>. And all i could see was Brendon. I did not notice JR and the others; not that they left or anything, i just couldn't notice 'cause i was so taken by Brendon. He stood up from the couch, i was in front of him. I tripped, i held on to his shirt and we fell on the velvet rugged floor. He fell on top of me [ not a very decent scene to be in! >.< ] I could feel his warmth, his breaths. He looked at me with his eyes that told me he liked me. He smiled. He got up and helped me get up too. The light was red; i could feel the intensity of the moment. I could feel his warm touch as he suddenly hugged me. He stared at me with those fiery eyes. We were inches apart.

I blurted out: "Are you trying to copy the thing in Get Smart?" <the flirting thing>

He didn't take his eyes off me. He smiled once more. I sorta melted and he drew closer. I believe he was about to kiss me, and i was about to give in! It was like a driving force to get nearer to this person. Fortunately, i got back into my senses and instead, placed my head on his left shoulder. [i cant believe i almost kissed this guy! i thought.] I expected utter defeat in his actions since i hesitated [it was like total KJ moment :)) ]. But you know what? He hugged me tighter; his hands now at the back of my head. He closed his eyes and kissed me on my forehead [like a dad would do].

THOUGH SAYING: You did the right thing by not kissing me.

i totally melted. it felt really good. it was not lust but father-like love. I felt so loved at that moment. So understood, so accepted. We broke off the hug.

Music suddenly played. He told me we should dance before i left. I placed my hands on his hips [no fat at all!] and i told him to put his hands on my shoulders [i think it's the other way around :)) ] He smiled at me again. We swayed to the music, it wasnt really dancing. He smiled, and asked my if this was really dancing. I told him, it doesnt matter :)) so we "danced" the night away. :D

The following day i went back to the place to say goodbye to him [i reckon they were leaving]. I couldnt reach him. He was on top of the building. There was a large crowd on the street; but all i could hear was his voice. He yelled [these are not the exact words but that's the thought]: We cant be together! You were great/spectacular. But here, i wrote a song for you.

the crowd was noisy but again, i only hear his voice.

he sang: "She was < a word synonymous to great or magnificent >..." his voice was so heavenly. :)

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I WOKE UP. It was a totally awesome dream. mixed emotion about stuff. (please dont think i made this up, i really dreamt it.) the first thought that occurred to me was:

they say dreams are messages from God. Is Brendon here, a symbol for a guy i'll meet or have met? IS MY PRINCE CHARMING COMING TO GET ME?

i wrote about it because i did not want to forget this dream. it was truly wonderful; and it seemed so real (though impossible), i really felt i was there. I couldnt describe it like this if i didnt, can i? :)) anyway, hoped you enjoyed it. :D