Dear Diary,
I havent written to you in a while. well that's because i dont trust you. =)) you always spill the beans on me! like the time when i liked--- *******. :)) ahahaha. well iit's that i dont trust you but, the people are such busybodies.
well anyway. today is my birthday. July 28. yesss. haha. i guess it is so far, the most memorable one yet. kahit medyo nagtampo ako nung umaga. my own parents forgot my birthday. :| pero i'm fine na naman. school was just wonderful. being ignored half of the day, and being showered by love in the other. :D >:D< i'm so thankful. to have GREAT FRIENDS. [i love you RONA!] i love all of you guys. :D :) haha! salamat nga pala kay JC and ATE MITCH for accompanying me in Mcdo. :D :) >:D<
the thing that made this day special was what anjilo asked me.
yun na yung pumasok sila rona to greet me na. medyo mushy na ako nun. and then anjilo asked me to come near him.
"Eto ba ang masasabi mo, na walang may pakialam, walang pumapapansin? . . . . " i cant remember what he said, but it was something like that.
last june. i fel terribly depressed. TERRIBLY. for all i know, the world was just using me. i felt so alone. Sleeping late at night or early in the morning, for the people that didnt even bother to help. Waking up early in the morning to finish something. being morally degraded by words that cut through my flesh. tapos parang iniisip mo na lang na walang nagmamahal sayo.
andami mong hirap na pinagdadaanan para sa ibang tao.
being on the brink of breaking.
i just wanted to run away and die or something. harsh, i know, but it's true.
a few people kept me going. they were Friends. tapos alam mo yun, tipong nabago yung buong pagkatao ko nung arw nat o.
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