Did you ever get the feeling of knowing something was going to happen, something you didn't like and something you have no power over, but you always said to yourself that "It's not going to happen yet"? Like, it's somewhere off far into the future.
And before you know it, it already happened.
Let's make it more specific,
Did you ever get the feeling of knowing that you were to lose something and all that while, you said to yourself: "It's not going to happen YET",
and before you know it, you already lost it.
And then, you begin to think that you've wasted so much time being in denial of the fact that it was slowly inching away.
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I realized something recently: I was clinging on to the illusion of thinking that nothing would change YET, with how my barkada was. And before I knew it, things had already changed.
Somehow, I guess, you could say I'm pretty immature. I really held on to the dream of having them with me all throughout college (and, perhaps, subconsciously, for life).
Perhaps, inside, really, I didn't want change. I wanted things to stay the same, that we were going to be the same crazy bunch, without any intervention from whatever person/thing.
